yo sup.
finished twilight...in a day, i think.
wth. thought the book was..._|_
probably bcos i was jealous the whole time reading abt the girl and the vampire.
haha. damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. why her not meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeT.T
tee hee.
ya so, i'm back to dracula...jonathan is still stupidly stuck at dracula's place..
dunno wat have to send letter to his frens...then he cant write anything like he's being forced to stay dunno wat shit. *YAWNS* ahah, hold yr horses!! cant jump into conclusions just by reading the first part of a book. some books have boring first parts..when the story progresses..it's exhilarating. LOLLL. haha, its true laaaa. can name some, but lazy seh.heh.
OMG.joshua says mg got frenster.T.T
my god.i'm reading redsports now...i'm looking at his dejected face aft a spiking error...makes me sad tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo:'( yes, yes, i can understand...*sobs*
sch's so boooooooooooooooooooooooooring without pe or trng...pe sucks when we have to run....WHO THE HELL INVENTED RUNNING?!?!?! *think racism* must be the bangs la...wth...now we have to run like all the time during pe when they discovered running while trying to flee aft stealing stuff.LOL..i kid i kid.
OH YEAHH. THERE'S TRNG TMR!! i cant wait to do weights! the thought of the benchpresses and weightlifting simply excites me and lifts my spirit. wowwwwwwwwwww.

shit man.i gotta see him agn if not i'll forget how he looks like. i have a thing for not remembering faces, only names. DAMNNN. didnt go to bishan tdy cos my mom's frens thought it was too far for all of them...then they were saying that they should go to tiong instead._|_BUT,BUTBUTBUTBUTBUTBUT. i'm gg to my dentist the day aft tmr. which is like 3 stops away from bishan...maybe i'll go float arnd j8 soulessly. hehe. ANYONE WANNA JOIN ME?!?!?!

OMFG. I FINALLY GOT TWILIGHT!!!T.T
OMGOMGOMGOMG. I'M LIKE 3/4 INTO IT NOW.
GOT IT YTD....CAN'T CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT AND
EXCITEMENT AND JUBILANCE, IF THERE IS SUCH A WORD. OMG.OMGOMGOGMOGMOGM.
ok, i'll type normally now.haha. thank you mom!! for dragging me to orchard. ytd was like er, whole day with her frens...cos they wanted to go for some sk2 thing...obviously to get free stuff.LOL. haha. then er, they went to eat..then went for coffee...walked all the way to og albert, then my mom said i should go to wheelock myself instead of waiting for them to finish their coffee. then she gave me 30 bucks. got twilight and another book called players. the first of my collection of gory books. heh heh heh. i wanted to get you want to play? that book feels gorier than player luh. wthhh. but it was 3 bucks more. didnt have enough $ T.T... found alot of gory books.haha. aft i get the 150$ i'll probably spend it all on books. although i have like er, 9 unread books.=p or i'll spend all the money on an arm chair. i need a high neck one. the super comfy and cozy red felt ones. i can use my dad's ikea one. i'll drag it into my room. but he'll SLAY me.HAHA. hais. dracula must feel lonely without my company now, and me for deserting/leaving it for another book. hehe. OMG. I REALLY "WANT YOU WANT TO PLAY"!! shit man. it's so damn freaky. i love it when things sends shivers down my spine. psychologically masochistic no?hehe.
ya, and i want an arm chair too.i'll make a wishlist!!

had math tuition with vale and claudia tdy...aft so long.haha. then er, LOL. youxiang and songwei suddenly appeared. HAHHA. then er,yujun called aft a while, cos yx wants me to buy macs for them and send to his hse. wtfffff _|_ i'm not a blac_. i have rights!!hehe. then ah, my mom went mad agn...i guess reference to imh isn't an option..considering how erratic her mood swings are. she's angry at my spg grandma, now she's angry with my whole side of the family, including me. everyone whose surname is sim. wtf? how lame can she get. she needs someone to get it off her system, permanently, incase she has to dig up the stupid incident agn...damnnnn. i dont undstand why she has to squeeze with me in my room. its so fking annoying.i hate being arnd ppl when i read. wtf. its like you nva know if the person is observing you, your face when you read. or when you get too engrossed, they might hear you mumbling to yrself. or they might hear your thoughts cos you're so quiet. then the equilibrium shifts from your mouth to your brain. haha. anw, its difficult to get engrossed with ppl arnd. unless the person is er mg la.haha. eh no, if its mg, it would be worse. i dont think my engrossed face looks anyway attractive.hehe.

anw i have to stop myself from blabbering on abt everytihng. haha. aw shucks tmr got sch. but i'm gg to junction 8, bishan, my mom fren's hse, AKA in front of his sch...hehe. MG!! i need to go read twilight. it's calling my name!! omg edward is so hot...but no one can be hotter than mg. I NEED TO STOP TALKING.OKOK.

wth. my ma de is crazy. just cos selene thinks my chi tuition tcher is not good(when she sat in during on of the lsns), then my mom say she v smart. LOL? just like that? wtf, its stupid la. i also can say...i anyhow sit in in some other tuition tcher's lsn then condemn the tcher like mad, then it would make me a genius right? _|_ her luh(no thanks, but it's just an expression), i was insulting table tennis, gay sport, then she come and kb me abt volleyball. wth is her problem luh, just bcos my stupid grandmother come and call her and kb her doesnt mean that she can vent her anger on me by kb-ing me right? then she angry cos my grandmother damn bias one then she has to insult everyone arnd her, even the poor dog is a victim of her incessant kb-ing. "U STUPID DOG LA. WHY YOU BUY HIM, SO TROUBLESOME."

oh noooooo. stephanie got fever now...fa sao1, not shao1.LOL. dunno say eat wat papaya, havent shit yet. then she say eh, i go watch tv, wait for the papaya to come out. LOLLLLL.damn funny sia. anw, trng was...as usual luh...coach like starting out not v good mood..i think. anw b4 that we did gym...6kg..nono, total 12 kg bench press..then er..all the usual stuff luh. didnt really do much running until warm down..then play ball. haha.yayyyyy. so happy now!! jiali say first time can tell that i got pia. lol...feel so satisfied with myself now. whoopie!!haha, sry ziyun for the last serve, i too zai alrd.hehe. must be bcos i kept thinking of him luh. really gd influence...damn zai leh he. how many times must i say that he's zai. nvm, i'll say it agn. HE'S DAMN ZAI. !! zai zai zai zai zai. i think zai has another meaning leh. proud i think. but he doesnt look the least bit arrogant luh. that's a gd thing. arrogant ppl pisses me off. but not for guys la, i hardly hate guys. haha. i luv guys!!>:B heh heh heh. haha, if i get married...i'll love guy. but i love guys.:'( HAHA. russell peters rocks!! used to keep watching the same old 45 min show over and over agn. nva fails to make me roll on the floor.haha. literally, i was rolling.damn funny sia.haha. esp the chinaman part.LOL....CHINAMN CHINAMAN*spiderman theme song*LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. omg..m.g...........T.Thope he does well in his o's luh. but nvm la, he can get in to hc thru vb. COS HE'S SO ZAI. all positions can play, combined sch player also leh. ZAI OR NOT?! ZAI RIGHT!! haha, his fringe is swept to the right, then got a bit curl, not v big curl but..a bit...walao...he got dao ming si's features leh. the nose, the nose bridge v high.nose v sharp. eyebrows v nice also.haha. but he got baby boy look. omg, cant say too much, later every1 fall in love with him then go kajiao him i die alrd...hehe. he's not always in my mind, always in my loving heart<3tee hee. HAHAHAHHAHAHA. but seriously la, haha. my mom's gg to her fren's hse in bishan nxt wk dunno when i think, she say most probably. meet her rich indo girlfrens/classmate/tai tais. if i didnt rmb wrongly, her house is like directly infront of his sch.LOL.haha, suddenly rmb wat shaowei said. if i give him 20 bucks then he'll follow me go there do "survey", ask for contacts..haha. i said no way.then he say EHH 20 BUCKS FOR YR FUTURE HAPPINESS V WORTH IT LEH. LOL. say in chinese funnier.haha. i have a feeling that mg's math isnt good. i think he's more inclined towards the arts. or volleyball la. (ITS AN ART OK.)haha, my math also v zai one. can help him.tee hee.walao i seriously cant stand it la. cat high vballer, all position can play, combine sch player, hwachong vball material. i must get close to him luh. suck all his zai-ness away. heh heh heh. no la, cant, cant take away his joy of playing vball. take like 10% away can alrd. 10% of him is like...wtf...haha. zai until cannot zai. OMFG. I JUST RMBED. I THINK JIAOLIAN PLAYED WITH HIM B4. OMGOMGOMG. DUNNO READ WHO'S BLOG. I THINK HE TEAM WITH MG THEN PLAY WITH THE PRESBY HIGH ZAI GIRLS. OMG. AISEH.MUST WAIT UNTIL TUESDAY UNTIL I CAN ASK HIM ABT HIM.LOL. T.T im so lucky to be in volleyball. OH.
I HAVE THOUGHT OF A PERFECT VBALL SLOGAN.
"volleyball, where all the hot guys are V^.^"
HAHA. but my coach isnt hot la. so damn fat. and er mg's fren, the damn short one, the other white one with super red lips.lol. but. st hilda guys also...T.T omgT.T.T.T.T.T.T.T..T.T standing nxt to them would be like standing nxt to er, 2 yongyus.HAHA, stacked one on top of another. damn tall. shoulders damn broad one. i still rmb the b div girls finals. walao...then we walk past the st hilda guys...omgT.T effing tall sia. anw all vballers should be tall la. at least 1.65 to get in national team. if short then be libero the best.cos being short supposedly makes you move faster.hehe minping.shorty.hehehhehe.and fatty.hehehhehehe. lol. must sit on the court more often when it's damn hot. makes yr butt smaller luh. i felt the effects mannn!!HAHAH.anyone wanna butt de-enhancer package? come look for any vballers. must pay 10 bucks entrance fee to the court. and results vary with time and with weather.best to do at 12 noon.

my god, i just crapped a whole lot. im so tired now, but i still feel like crappinggggggggggggggg. i hope bryce calls.hahaha. tmr.got.pipa.T.Thaha, omfg, cai ls told ziqi that i learn v fast.OH YEAHHH.haha. ZAI RIGHT?! but i need a piano tcher nowwwwwwwwwww. but u must feel puzzeled now, asking me why in the world would i need a piano tcher when i'm alrd so zai. bcos, I WANNA BE MORE ZAI. own the tcher!! then she every session come my hse tio suan.HEHE. but i dont want the tcher to come my hse leh.dont like ppl to contaminate my piano. later i catch the piano tcher's germs. which is to be v kb. all my piano tchers all so damn annoying one, keep sa ka me cos i nva ever practice. esp the jap tcher.LOL. her name was mariko i think. i always enjoyed it when she tries to scold me. cos it's so fun watching her struggle to get the right words and pronunciation out. OH YEAHHH V^.^V now she's married to some australian..she's damn chio btw. OH, SPEAKING OF CHIO. i need to chio-ify my hair during the wkends. accumulated alot of split ends and damaged endsT.T need to trim it all off so that my hair can keep growing. HAHA.

oh,ya, the ben n jerry's ice cream bar is damn nice.haha. i luv the brownie part.

IT'S SO HOT TODAY. I'M SO ANGRY!!!!!!
>:( GRRRRR!!
wth luh. morning was still quite ok... but i was quite >: in the morning alrd...was quite warmm...
i bet i'm the only person who sweats early in the morning..
even stephanie the super sweater doesnt sweat in the mornining.
lolllll.
CID was sucky. sukingly boring. the lecturer's voice v hypnotizing luh...i kept falling asleep.
then my head kept rolling backwards, then i'll jerk myself awake. wthhh...could have continued slping like kendrick. he was snoring sia.could hear him even though there was the steps inbtween us.lolol. i slp until i dont feel like slping, got so irritated. 100 mins lecture leh. somemore the lecturer think he v funny. dunno tell some stupid joke. wth, i hate ppl with a stupid sense of humour. everyone was slping..then the choy ban heng another idiot. hold us back for lik 20 mins to talk abt some shittingly lame thing. faggotry in motion!!
then from then on, got headache luh. tension headache!! fking annoying leh. then got this stupid ss tcher. eyerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrlend.WTF?is that the way to say ireland? soanooying. can she not keep saying ireland. irritates the hell outta me. no more ernest chia alrdT.T come another nasal tcher...chia kelli. wtfff. our bio tcher also nasal one. but not so irritaing. anw i hate nasal ppl.lololol.
stupid la, then i got tension headache from morning until now. then almost slept during thz's lsn. lol, mrs yuen's lsn la actually. wth sia.
she keep making me move here move there. had to drag the stupid chair arnd the lab. in the end she say she ask me to go there to take apparatus only....wtfffffffffff. then i see her talk then i fell asleep, for awhile.... tmr got theory lsn leh...hope i dont get headache. if not trng i gg alrd. sure get scolding from coach. at least once every session die die also must get scolded wth luh. i everyday also must get scolded by my mom. EHHHH.BUT TDY DONT HAVE LEH. OMG. I'M GG TO WRITE THIS DOWN IN MY DIARY!! 26th june is a significant day. i'll celebrate it nxt yr. haha.

m.g is a really good role model luh. not academically, i think he's sort of "mentally challenged", or academically challenged..LOL. but that's even better right? can help him for his o's.haha. ANW. he's a really good player and all. player as in...not that girl player la, i dont think he is..he looks so decent. actually thinking abt it, i've nva really worked hard for anything b4. really..my parents also dont give me incentives for my results. and i dont want them to, wat a wrong method of teaching a kid. bribery seh. if they dont give me what i ask for, i also dont really give a damn. aft the tweety bird incident. i dont dare anymore. lol... ANW. this should be the very frst thing i'll work hard for. oh and abt m.g, i think it works when i keep thinking abt him, to think abt him. he's really damn zai. all positions can play leh. haha, i want to be the female version of him. but i dont want to look like him. cos i think i'm chioer than him. lol.

haha, that was a nice speech right?lol. anw they say if you dream abt someone, you'll meet him. i havent dream abt him yet leh T.T

shit la, international kakis is a really perverted website luh. to be more exact, the photographer. peter ho.LOL. wth. got ourpics leh.some is like taken without us noeing. then got some bikini girls rubbing sun block on ea other. then got the cleo bikini ppl.
i need to do physics now..if not tmr will get SLAYED by llm.HAHA.

hais.
i wonder when i'll go to junction 8....
claudia rocks luh!! she wants to go with me sia. better than da stupid team _|_ jiali say wat the chance that u will see him is 1 in a millionTH. wah, million not enough still millionTHHH. emphasize on the th somemore. thanks arh, thanks alot arh. Then theres micole who says the chance is 0%. thats worse than 1 in a millionth leh. its zilchT.T dunno who said smth abt meeting due to fate. BUT. t'was(LOL) due to fate that we met at siloso leh. i trust that we'll meet agn, thanks to fate(: our fates are interlinked. oh yeahhhh>:) junction 8 got quite alot of things leh. from my 2 yr old memory of it...omg 3rd lang. stupid seetoh sensei. "MOUUUUICHI DOHHHHHHH."*scratches mouth.*LOL. and joshua's super lame kitkat joke. still rmb him kiap-ping my wet socks with his pens. then made to stand outside the clsrooom by the dictator. lolololol. and chichi!! oh, theres still the ACSI boys. andrew sim..i him cos we share the same surname.haha.
sian, gotta go dewi's hse to finish the math poster by 2nite. eyur. m.g nva finish doing it ytd nite. hehehe. strictly by 2nite must finish. if not we tmr gg alrd. T.T
oh ya, more abt m.g. wth luh, "wahhh.i see him carry the tent he was like just infront of me only lehh." "i saw him taking off his shirt! but he wear shirt nicer leh." wth sia. how come da team can see him doing those stuff?!?!?!? eyur. super jealous luh, jiali was telling us that she saw some guy v cute, but when he take off his shirt not cute. didnt noe it was m.g.i dont care mannn. he's still cute even if he takes off his socks!! HAHA. damnnnn.i only saw him at the cafe luh. he was, CHECKING.ME.OUT. oh yeahh. no kid no kid! really sia. i like his hair.haha. but his fringe is swept to the left. mine is to the right. oh yeahh. we click!! I WANT NO.7 JERSEY!! steal from jiali!! haha. then i'll click even more with him!!! aiseh. why cant CIPs be like helping sec4 students study for their o's. then i can go ch with a more valid reason. lol. pretend do survey there.haha. claudia's lucky draw, then write down particulars right? LOL.
hahahahahahahhahahahahahahhaha.
oh ya, yx the asshole keeps spraying saliva at me.
its damn disgusting luh.
i turn arnd, abt to ask him smth.
then...*showers of blessings...*
AHHHHHHH.
i sit bhind him, havent even start talking yet then he turn arnd,
"FUCK OFF."
LOLOLOL.
oh then still got bryce.
"nonononono. i dont want to see m.g.dont show me."
haha.

so bored now.
okkkkkkkkkkkk.
i'll do this quiz thing.havent done one in quite some time. 2 yrs?
lol.
from this pt onwards,
not fun alrd.haha.

1.What’s the connection between you and the last person that called you?

mother daughter...

2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
ya, on purpose. avoid calls. haha.

3.What happened at 10.00 am today?

tan wan ting.

4.When did you last cry?
dunno, i dont cry, dude.

5.What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
grape jelly.

6.What do you want in your life right now?
more money $$$

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
none. i scream when the rain falls on me then run to the nearest shelter.

9.What bottom are you wearing now?
nothing. its too hot.

10.What does the nicest text in your inbox say?
from claudia: haha fate, depend on fate see whether can meet agn tell u right if see alr u btr take initiative dun make our trip a waste and ur chance 2. hehe.

SO MUCH BETTER THAN ANY FROM MY TEAM MATES LUH. suan me like mad...

11.Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
don't know leh. maybe..cos it wouldn't be any fun without a complication right?? then our relationship wouldnt be a story and it wouldn't have a nice ending and all.haha.

12.Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
NO. HOW INSULTING. >:(

13.What was the last movie you caught?
the happening... sucky piece of shit. screamed like mad sia.haha.

14.What are you proud of?
my sense of humour. LOL.

15.What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
LOL. can't say.cos from...aiya.haha.

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?
LOW. APPLE BOTTOM JEANS!! BOOTS WITH DA FURRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

17.Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
er, xiao hei. idiot. chio bu. pretty. gorgeous. sexy. chio until cannot chio.

18.What does your last received text message say?
Songwei: Heyy, Tday you give me that 10 dollars is to return to ms lai?

20.Are you currently happy?

Yeah, indescribable elation. Exultation. Psychedelic. On cloud 9. Happie.

21.Who gives you best advices?
I can't belive i'm saying this, but, Dewi.

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
No..I'm civilized...

23.Who did you talk on the phone last night?
F.u._._. My mom..

24.Is anything bugging you right now?
Yah...not getting to see m.g.. I'm afraid I'll forget how he looks like although i have his pics.hehe.

25.What/ Who was the last thing/ person that made you laugh?
LOL, Happy luh.haha. My dog la.

26.Do you wear toe socks?
No...Only when I'm forced too....

27.Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Mother. Mom. Mummy. Ah Bu. Okasan. Mama. Mami. Ma de.

28.Have you ever had your heartbroken?
DUH.

29.What annoys you most in a person?
Bad sense of humour. Doesn't laugh at my jokes. _|_

30.Do you have a crush on anyone?
yah. his name is m.g m_ _ _ _ _ g_ _.

31.Have you ever done cocaine?
No..kate moss rocks!

32.What is the colour of your room?
Fking light blue.

33.Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
DUH. I would even kill them for nothing. lol.

34.Do you believe in the saying “talk is cheap”?
YAH.

35.Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
him. LOLLLLLLLL.

36.Who was the last person to hug you?
Seow rong...lol.

37.Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
No. havent kiss yet. faster grab yr chance dudes!! noononono. I'm saving it for ...HAHHA.

38.Do you have a life?
ya, and it's picture perfect. like a 4cm by 4cm square. its perfect!! PERFECTO *kisses my finger tips.*

39.Have you ever thought someone died when they really didn’t?
Ya... my mom when she was slping. Hereditary paranoia.

40.What is the reason behind your profile song?
To throw your worries to the wind, do what you want to do right now, before its too late and you start regretting.

41.Who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
Yx and Jiali, getting married. EHH. SCARED THE LIVING DAYLIGHTS OUTTA ME. NO KID LEH. jiali must be mad.

42.Last time you smiled?
To my dog, when i kicked him>:) hehehehe.

43.Have you changed this year?
Yeah, that there are better guys out there. AND IVE FOUND MINE. HAHA.

44.What are you listening to right now?

My mom's stupid taiwan soap opera theme songT.T

45.Are you talking to someone when you’re doing this?
Myself.

46.Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Closed. My IQ is so high, I don't even need to open my eyes.

47.Is there a quote you live by?
Live life to the fullest...er, and, blaming others won't solve the problem. Blaming yourself would only make you stronger, and make a grand come back. LOL. It's too deep only I understand it.

48.Do you want someone you can’t have?
Yes...Joe Jonas...T.T cos m.g will be jealous!!

49.Have you ever played an instrument?
ya duh. piano, recorder, pipa, guitar, drums, mini guitar, clarinet, tambourine, maraca..etc.

50.What was the worst idea you’ve had in this week?
To er, use my bag pack.LOL.

51.What were you doing last night at 11.00 pm?
Going home.

52.Are you happy with your love life right now?
Yeah, i love m.g and he loves me<3>

53.What song describes your love life?
The siloso beach song.

54.Do the person knows you like him/ her?
LOL..no...But i know he likes me!!

55.Who always makes you laugh?
Moi. youxiang. my teammates. haha. claudia.

56.Do you speak another language other than English?
Ya duh, I'm like quadlingual? I speak Indonesian, Chinese and Huishan.

57.Are you blonde?
No...I'm not legal.

58.What’s your middle name?
Sexy.

59.What are you doing tomorrow?
Go to sch, study until i die.

60.What do you think you are like?
Everyone's favourite!!

61.Who will you choose to die with?
My great great great great great great great grand kid.

62.Where have you been today?
School....I need to rename our sch...My fren called fairfield fairfuck.haha.

63.What game do you play often?
City Bloxx. Solitaire.

64.Who are you missing right now?
no joke, m.g.

65.you were to choose between friends and love, who will you choose?
LOL. don't put me in a spot. I'll love a friend, then the friend will be my love.

66.What are you doing right now?
WTF. Stupid qn.

67.Which primary school are you from?
CHIJ Kellock

68.Name 3 colours that you like.
Black, Red, Pink.

69.What emotions do you like to show?
Retroooo. Sexy emotion. LOL.

70.What is life to you?
It's like eating chicken rice in Australia. Absurd.

71.If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Solve it luh.

72.Who did you last chat with in MSN today?
Stephanie. lol.

73.Who do you admire most?
Seriously, Xiaxue. and a manga character. lol.

74.Which month are you born in?
May.

75.How are you feeling right now?

Tired.

76.What is the time now?
5.52pm.

77.Where are you now?
m.g's hse.

78.What colour did you use to dye your hair?
Burgundy.

79.Why are you doing this test?
To get scolding for using the com.

80. What do you do when you’re moody?
Eat.

81.At which age do you wish to get married?
Aft I become an accomplished neurosurgon, neurologist. and my 5 yrs in John's Hopkins. Don't look down on me yx!!!!!!!!!!!!!! er, probably like 27 or 28.lol.

82.Who is more important to you?
m.g

83.Do you think you have enough confidence?
yeah.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?

myself.lol.

85.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?

yeah.

86.If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?

that i'm operating on someone's brain, or heart.

87.What is your goal for this year?
do well for vball. get in main 6.

88.Do you believe in eternity love?
yes.

89.What feeling do you love most?
ecstacy.

90. Do you really think it’s Global Warming now?
yalayala.

91.What feeling you hate the most?
female dogs

92.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yeah, for sure.

93.Do you believe in God?
yeah, i guess.

94.Who cares for you the most?
my mom, dad, happy....m.gLOL.

95.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
volleyball.

96.What’ll you bring when you fight?
my mouth and a bottle of water.

97.What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
lots. "this" shouldnt make me regret in the end!!

98.What would you feel that no one no longer cares for you?
that will be..when i'm and 80 yr old virgin.

99.What if your stead two-timed you?
I’ll castrate him.LOL.HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA.But before I do that, I'll sodomize him with a cow. Praying that the ropes hoisting the cow abv him will snap and thus crushing him. Ah, then after that I'll go on to castrating him. oh yeah. HAHHA.

OMFG. GOOD NEWS!! MY MOM SAYS SHE'S GG TO BISHAN TMR TO HER FREN'S HSE.
WHICH IS LIKE OPP OF....CATHOLIC HIGH. IF I RMB CORRECTLY.
OMGT.T
IM GG TO CRY.
THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!!! T.T
ANYONE WANNA HANG WITH ME AT J8 B4 PROCEEDING TO HIS SCH TO CHECK OUT HIS TRNG????!?!?!?!?!?LOLOLOLOLOLOL. tmr they got trng i think.

im at m.g's house now.

haha.

he's helping me do the poster.

yayyyyy.

haha, he say i bully him :( aww

he got alot of jerseys, im going to steal one.heh heh heh.

although im not doing anything.

im so tired now......T.T

i'm gg to stay over night here >: ) heh heh heh. disturb him!!

hell training just now sia.

do 1.5 h of gym, wasai i'm damn zai.

use the 6kg weights for each arm to do bench press.

ZAI RIGHT?!?!

he say not zai. haha.

but i couldnt get up aft i finished doing it. cos the weights were resting on top of me.

haha.
then carry the metal bar 20kg...
spiking action with the 2kg weights. for 75 times..T.T
setting 5kg weights.
receive 2.5kg weights.
sweet.
jiaolian seriously got problem tdy...>:( _|_
run interval...best timing only 1min19 secs i think. but its only 300m la.
aft ea interval must do 20 pushups and 20 situps.
wtf, did like 110 pushups alrd luh.
50 for forgetting my kneepads.nxt time must use permanent marker write on my hand.
20 punishment.
40 during intervals....
AIYA, NO KICK LAH!

anwwwwwwwwww. m.g is so cute.hahaha.
i'm at his hse now. how many times must i say it!?!?!HAHA.
he's still helping me do my poster....
so tired. im gg to go slp...ON HIS BED!! HAHAHAHHA.
he slp on the floor.
aiya, my uniform v dirty leh tmr wear wat sia..haha.

omg. im gg back to my little black book of secrets days...
HAHHA.

WTF. MY CUZ CALLED ME XIAO HEI.
then just now mrs tan ask y our face so black.
COS COME BACK FROM SILOSO WATTTTTTTT.
lololol. im turning into a bangala.
m.g say i v cute!! (((((((((((((((((:
and that my bagpack is cute too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and not forgettting my eyebrows.
OH YEAHHH.

sick luh, during trng. keep thinking of.
mgmgmgmmgmgmgmgmgmgmgmg.
felt happier.
and maybe can play better.
MAYBE.
walao. he hwa chong material leh.
vb also v zai.
i bet he's close to 180. my head only reaches his shoulders.barely.
so cute also.
nice to kids.
and dogs.
super decent looking.
has loud ah beng frens.
WHAT MORE CAN I ASK FOR? :)

first day of sch...........
HAIS...
or rather, first night of the day of sch.
slept close to 12am....was downloading photoshop, in the end cant use.
muthafking !@#!@$@!
then slept without aircon cos the stupid machine spoil agn.
wth luh, must be my dad go use the stupid vapouriser thing to clean the aircon then burn the stupid thing. got chaoda smell luh.
walaooooo.
then keep leaking.
>:(
in the end ya la, no air con = rashes.
woke up at 3.45 am....thought it was 6 plus alrd...
then it was still in the er, wee hrs of the morning...................... then keep scratching my itch. dunno why so gl, all of them are at my joints there. the elbow and the knee. lololol.must be the sand in sentosa got poison.lol. but my feet nva itch leh. anw....wanted to shower luh, whole body super sticky sia. in the end scratch until 4.15...then fall asleep while scratching. woke up with a headache. now still v tired.lol.
then go to sch............dad took a new route..then ah, saw like neighbourhood kids. walao, dunno y i felt so jealous of them leh. i want to go to a neighbourhood sch!! LOL. they seem happier and free-er, and more fun-er, not so conservative as the ppl in our sch...hahahah. dewi says im mad.
LOL.Youxiang's finger!! danm funny sia!! when u grab it or flick it he will scream.hehehe. damn funny. im going to do the wuxi finger hold on him tmr. HOHOHO.
then er, lol, jiali came back!! to find *ahem* walao, he not passionate enough sia. haha.
haha, my pipa tcher told ziqi abt me,lol, says i learn fast. OH YEAHHH. IQ 200 PLUS LEH.
then ah, went to find dewi, go her hse use photoshop, in the end like the background thing dickson help me do. that bitch went to slp, refused to help sia. slept like a baboon. along with dennis the 9 yr old menace. walao, he was DROOOOOOOOOOLING. got like spit leaking outta his mouth haha.damn funny.should have taken a pic of him. lololol.
haha, CHANCED upon this pic, no thanks to jiali! haha
















LOL. FAITH SO CUTE SIA.HAHA.
haha, me and chihyun had to help with the stupid registration thing.
i keep gg "faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaithhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh."
*ignores me * for almost all the time i kept calling her. HAHA.
shant say anything more abt this pic.
infer yrself.HAH.
oh, if u wanna see me putting on the medal go my friendster!!haha.

















lol.we got our pics on internationalkakis!! cool.

cant be too despo alrd.hehe. i'll stay low, for now, for tonight!!
and resume tmr!!!!!!!!!!!
OH YEAHHH.
suddenly alot of our frens noe him. lololol.
sweet(:

JOSHUA HAVENT GIVE ME HIS EMAIL YET T.T










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SIA LA. I CANT WAIT LEH.
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
DAYUM TMR SCH REOPEN.
HAVENT FINISH MATH PROJ YET.
EVERYONE LIKE TOUCHING UP ALRD.
AND IM STILL WAITING FOR ADOBE TO FINISH DOWNLOADING.
DAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMIIIT.
72%
YEAH YEAH YEAH.
BUT WAT IF DOWNLOAD FINISH IN THE END CANT USE.
DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET.T

OMG. JOSHUA NOES ___.
OMGT.T
IM GG TO CRY. HE'S GETTING HIS EMAIL FOR ME.
HEH HEH HEH.

finally im gg to get his email...then get to noe him.heh heh heh. jiali must be super jealous!!>:)
like what jiao lian told us during the camp, in chinese, the most difficult thing to get is the most precious. oh yeahh. but he added, "so nxt time u all got guys want to chase u all musnt let him get u easily. "LOL.

okok, im gg to blog abt the siloso volleyball challenge 2008, to explain why joshua suddenly appeared in the post.haha.
so er, it started off damn early in the morning.
and the day b4 was the camp so we were damn tired...T.T
then sr say meet at 7am at harbour frnt.
in the end she came late.
we went to eat then go siloso...
so er, yeah.
played the first match.
felt a little apprehensive at first but dunno why me and sr kee siao at the start.
sian nee serve 3 times we watch the ball land, "eh, yours la!" then followed by mad laughter.
won the first set, then they won 2nd set. damn had to play for another set, aiseh. sry stephanie and sr:(
then ah, madness, i panicked like mad. so that was what i was apprehensive abt. sr spike and serve like mad then i help to lose all the pts.
but in the end got help to gain some with continuous service aces.
until the crucial moment. really helpless seh. haha. self talked. "we must win. we must win this damn thing." They were leading by like 7 pts or smth, but we caught up soon. then it was "4 more pts to go only" before we won. aced the last 2 service, then we won!!
during the 3rd set, micole, chihyun and jiali came to support us aft their match with the holy presbytarian ppl. really needed the support. Aft we won i almost cried. so happy, relieved, although this was just a minor game, but it meant smth to us, or me at least- team spirit. Even though you feel like giving up, you are cynical about winning, the thought of victory has been overwhelmed by fear, disappointment, frustration, your team mates are at the sidelines, cheering. Knowing that is enough for you to win, to want to win. Really, couldnt let them down, we talked abt this match before, i felt that it was our pride at stake, we musnt lose. Like what sr said, we cant let ourselves down. really. And then, when you win, every thought in your mind, every bit of fear, worry, just disappears and it's taken over by exultation, "psychedelia". Can't find the exact word to explain the feeling, but its the feeling of extreme, well- deserved happiness.
Then it was team jiali's turn to play . Yeah, me stephanie and sr were there cheering for them. haha, to be honest, i was so desperate for the extra money that i badly wanted them to win. This extra victory really proved to them luh. haha. This isnt personal attack or anytihng, but i just want to, er, express my opinion abt smth, abt a reaction. I guess our team should noe who i'm referring to, yx too. Well, losing is smth right? who in the right mind would want to lose, dammit. yeah, like when both our teams lost to u in the opening matches 2 wks ago. we felt like shit. you think its nice losing? but we told ourselves, at least, to play better, harder. We didnt outrightly say anything abt our loss. and it wouldnt be fair if anyone did cos in a sport, someone has to lose. i dont know abt you but you have been in this sport way longer than i have. i was in netball in pri sch for a measly 1 yr, i was slacking all the way so that shouldnt count. but being in this particular sport, for more than 3 yrs, longer than us. You should know more more about being a good sportsman, what sportsmanship is all about. i dont think anyone of us would give a damn abt any stupid comments, i may seem like i am but i'm just saying. what you did would just reflect badly on you, as a player, a sportsman, a sportswoman or rather. we felt for you at first, because we know you want to win badly too, we know exactly how it feels, we have been in your shoes 2 wks ago. maybe our feelings have all gone to waste. we won instead maybe bcos our desire to win was stronger, and it still is. what ive just said wasnt meant to spite you or anything, the point im trying to get at is, if you lose, "lose with grace", lose with more dignity, at least, ppl would respect you, it was a good game.
Anwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
hahahah. jerian and the guys were catching fish!! LOL. haha, in the end jiali and i went to look for them while watching the men's open. wtf, they so pro until i felt so sian. haha. bored aft a while. lol the fishes. haha. then aft a while we went back then the started killing the fishes. damn cool. i think they poured sand in the bottle with the fish. then poured everything out. all the tiny ones came out. got one super tiny clownfish or smth, it was like half a cm long, then dno who say is underage sex.cos the fish still premature or smth.lololol. then the big fish couldnt come out stuck. 5 cm i think. then brandon torture the fish like siao. then stuff the rubber band into its mouth, fish keychain! LOL.










then er, jiaolian wanted 2 of us to help faith do some stuff.
then stupid chihyun drag me along cos we got the same bday-___-
brought us to the cafe place then we thought we had to serve drinks and shit. lol. in the end had to sit there to do some registration thing.
"U ORDINARY, EXECUTIVE OR (cant rmb) MEMBER???"
LOLOLOL.in the end sat there for dno how long. then hehe, we went to take pics of the pics of some ppl. ahem.hehe.
then sr they all came and joined us.hahaha. oh ya, we walked some huge ass dog that belonged to one of the organizers there or smth. lol. damn huge, that slobbering mutt.hehe. damn cute la.haha.
then the cafe there got one little kid, v cute too.... what __ did to the little kid was damn cute.haha. and to the dog.
then er, took lots of pics. then waited damn long for the prize presentation. i killed a bee, or wasp, it was huge. then stuffed a stick up the body.
then played with the mutt. waited. wached the presentation clip. then er, prepared our speech for our prize presentation in sch..on a serviette.haha. damn long sia.
then er, got our money, medal and the photo frame of our team. each.
and lots of vball in btween.
and sr lost her hw.haha. it was my fault.haha. was reading it trying to rmb the damn formula, dno y cant rmb c=1/2m(q/delta t) lol. then left it under the tent. then aft bathing realized she lost it. then ran back, cant find. sorrry!!haha.
i'll go upload the pics we took during the camp and ytd.
oh ya, anw, joshua saw me at the cafe there. said he walked infront of me but i didnt recognize him.haha. so thats the story of joshua.haha. wow, he could still recognize me, he changed alot i think, frm that chubby hairy gorilla to a er, thinner person?lol. haha.

oh nooo.
his name isnt qingshan.
qingshan is some ugly shitface.
his name is melvin.
LOL.
another melvin.
and not frm st hilda but frm cat high.
LOLOLOLLOLOLOLOLOL.
must frequent junction 8 sehhh!!

oh man.
im so tired now.
just came back from siloso.
oh yeahhhh, we got 2nd place along with 450 bucks.
add with jiali's grps 300, totaly 750 yaooooooo!!
monday get prepared to see us on stage!!
maybe i'll be speaking along with steph and chih yun the shorty.
hehe.
anw, im not gg to blog abt the whole thing now.
but the only reason im blogging now is, (it might be super annoying, so er, better not read.haha)
OMFG.
qingshan
!
OMG. IM GG TO DIE.
SHIT MAN. ST HILDA'S VBALLER. GUYS SEC CATEGORY CHAMP, SUPER PRO, OMG HIS SPIKING T.T SO HOT IM GG TO DIE.
sec4 one dunno if that's his name but.
JIALI!! HE'S MINE.
DONT HAVE ANY FUNNY IDEAS ON HIM SIA.
didnt get to talk to him but, looked at each other for quite alot of times.
omg!!
screw my teammates luh, wth, everytime say must find a bigger catch.
wtf? qs not big enough meh?!?!? lolololol.
micole the idiot.
aiya, cant find his frenster.T.T im so sad :'(
omg, what he did to the little kid who walked past him and the huge ass bull dog or something that we were walking.
omgomgogmogmogm.
so....sweet.
hah, i got his pic. im not putting it here in case anyone tries anything funny. heh heh heh.
jiali still say not cute, wat his bod like woman?!?!?!?!
volleyball guys have the best bods luh,
just dont look at our sch ones la...you'll be disappointed.haha.
the mark guy was another one.omfg. scary sia, last yr he was at the clementi beach vb compt too.
dammit, he spiked thunder leh, or issit called lightining? its like the spike is perpendicular to the ground.
how to receive sia. and he was frm st hilda's too.
oh yeahhh. st hilda the pro sch. daniel!!
omg, dont tell me the guy we saw in sec one was the qingshan guy.omg.i got the super pixellated pic of him, i think. or was it sean. hahahahhaha.
haha oh ya, i was sitting bside the qingshan guy the fren.
then ah, er, HE KEEPS BLINKING.i think his eyes got sand, aiya, sia la, missed my chance if not can go blow out for him.
HAHAHA.
SR BLEW HER SPIT INTO MY EYE DURING THE MATCH LUH.WTF.HAHA.
omg, cant wait to show bryce and yx tht guy's pic.
haha, and his handwriting v cursive.hahaha.
must go patronize and stroll around st hilda more often.
OH YEAHHHH.
the sch that not only produces national champs but the hottest guys.
V^^V
omgggggg. i feel like posting his pic here.T.T
but i'll refrain.
in case other ppl fall in lurrrrrve with him, like yx the woman.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
i kid, i kid.
oh nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
my phone got alot of sand in the key pad luh.
now super diff to smsT_T
haha and we took lots of photos, during the camp and tdy.
super cool.
tdy was really fun.
rly proved that we're a team, the support that we give each other, either emotionally, mentally or eh, physically, really counts, its not only paramount but tantamount to victory. When me sr and stephanie were playing, thank god chihyun jiali and micole came and kept cheering us on. really felt much better and confident. its really very nice to have yr teammates at the side of the court, cheering for u, even though they're not playing in the same team but, its as though we are tgt. ah, this is smth ppl who are not in teams will not experience. it's really good, better than er, lol, wat xiaxue say's is the best thing in the world, orgasm. LOL. i still rmb last yr's match, we were doing the volleyball wave for the juniors. in the end they prevailed. haha, just now with chihyun jiali and micole when they were playing on court. we watched at the sidelines, we kept on cheering. really appreciated all the cheers words of encouragement, cos im er, not very strong mentally. haha. i panic too easily. thanks to songwei, bryce, youxiang, yujun, claudia and esp my team mates for the support. really, i dont think i could have managed those serves without chih yun screaming at me.haha. it was fking annoying but well, i enjoyed it. lol, paradox. sr rocked sia, spike and serve like mad.i could only serve to ace.T.T hais. sorry for losing all the points you got for us.hahah. damn, i received 2 fking scary serves and 1 spike from the national champs la. fking proud of myself. but i was like wtf... dont feel like playing liao leh.so hiong. but for someone like me to receive nicely its a miracle!!! oh, so this makes like 2 miracles tdy luh. haha. to joyce sian nee and jiayu, really good game, not sarca sia, thats wat we say to ppl aft matches.

oh ya, since im 150 bucks richer, IM TREATING EVERYONE FOR A MOVIE!!! HAHAHAHA.NO LA. I KID!! =P yx can forget abt his ben n jerry's, monday can wait for shit flavoured ice cream. heh heh heh. i'll just treat valerie and claudia for a movie, haha, actually anyone who wants can just ask la, then i'll consider...if u have been nice to me....

OH YEAHH,150 BUCKS RICHER.T.T
and met a nice guy and all.
how good can my day be?
haha.
and we've got a photo frame each with our team photos from VAS. cool beans.
its gg to stay on my study table.
and im sun burnt, and my lips are burning.
i only ate 1 meal, dinner, not even equivalent to the amt i usually eat.
i need 5 meals a day sia, replenish my carb store.
for muscle building!!
shit man, our muscles are damn disgusting, its going to get bigger cos from nxt wk onwards 1.5 hrs of gym b4 every trng.T.T
damnnnnnnn. my dad's gg to force me to go for swimming lessons, to er, take over his swimming legacy. wtf?lol. he was a sch team breast stroke swimmer. but couldnt get into combined schs. loser sia.hehe. oh ya, my mom was a volleyballer too. but she only managed 1 underhand serve in 3 yrs. lol...laughed at her.haha. omg. we saw grace seet. walao the seet family of national players sia. i touched the pen she used to sign the registration form. T.T im so lucky... omg. and another woman, xing smth one, damn man, her hair damn cool also, national player too i think. her service, wahhhh. another guy dunno from where one from men's open. walao his jump spike serve. I KOWTOW.

i love the beach sia. exfoliates our skin. now my skin feels like tau kee., tau huay. oh yeahhhhh. gtg slp now and dream of the qingshan. i think thats his name...stare at his pic.omgomgomgomg
hahahahahahahhahaha. screw ___ man!!!HAHA.

yayy.
im back from the vball camp.
lol.
go there like keep getting scolded leh.
morning go qifa pri...T.T
stupid luh, i don't want to let him down, none of us wants to but, we're trying right? at least some of us are. but maybe not hard enough:( the things he say was so...can cry one la.
then he gave us 50 bucks to buy materials to make a banner.
oh ya, 2 fairfield vballers were at the qifa trng. the guy damn scary..T.T omg, must go ask mitra to find out his name.
aft make banner... think like mad luh. in the end used the slogan sr came up with.
haha i rmb this part, damn funny.

*got alot of newspapers scattered on the floor*jiali was stepping on the one with ronaldo's face the man u guy.
me: EHHH. WALAO EH, DONT STEP ON RONALDO LEH!! HE SO HOT.
ziyun: 怎样?!?!?!?!? *steps on his face like mad, then everyone joins in and tears his face.*
me: T.T
haha, thought it was damn funny.
then aft that we played some team building game...i guess.haha.quite fun sia.ahha
then we went to play vball.
then shower.
should have gone home at night with stephanie sia....
better than having to stay in the stupid clsroom to listen to the stupid keith teo talk abt stupid things then later wait for him to have his stupid pms then scold us stupidly. wtf 40 minutes leh! ni nabeh. hehe.
then sia la, dinner only like 2 boxes of food for 6 ppl left?
wtfff. damn him sia, cannot plan properly, ask my mom scold him agn.hehe.
in the end ate the wushu ppl's food, wtf, they had a buffet leh. although it was er, beehoon and er, the usual buffet stuff................but it was far better than the cold lunchbox right. got one box got infested with ants.
lucky my dad was kind enough to bring chips and coke.haha. 3 1.5 liters finished.haha. and 2 bags of ruffles.
haha, then call yx kajiao him in his chalet.hahahaha.
er, then zhang hui wen talked to us..for damn long..
then we go sleep. wtf, esther and jiali fking noisy.haha.
sian, ziyun didnt say any ghost stories i think.T.T

er.......then woke up. rained like mad the night before.
it was still raining.
then had to go gym........hais.
haha. funny stuff happened.
minping and her fats thighs.hahahhahahahahahha.
then dismissed.
then play then in the end yongyu say want girls to come along to watch movie.lol.
but we lagged in sch play then have to keep stuff.
LOLLLL. the bball girl. sick sia.
the arm break until....hahha.
aft keeping the banner we went to vivo to eat....
esther took a video of me eating.
v funny meh?!?!? dunno y she kp laughing.
in the end also nva watch with the badminton guys.
we watched the happening.
omgomgomgomgomg. fking scary. damn gory.
T.T everyone started killing themselves.
got the lawn mower one, the guy lie down then let the mower, er mower him.lololol.
got 2 kids want to get food, kena shot.wtf? so scary sia, suddenly the guy shoot them. wtf...wat kind of place is our world turning into?
wtf the old woman part was scariest.
she got some doll. then cuckoo one leh she. in the end kena the virus then float arnd then bang her head on the wall then bang thru the window until she die.
v stupid luh, no story line one sia. suddenly end.the actors sucked la.
the woman like retarded one. in the end dunno wat i love u thing then wat want to die must die tgt. then they walk out to stupidly catch the virus, in the end nth happened.
then they go back she pregnant the story move to a scene in paris.then everyone start killing themselves agn. dunno wat la, maybe the lurrrrve the main actors showed touched the trees to stop releasing the virus shit. siao eh.haha.
yayyy.now we waiting for the stranger to be released.
omfg.
damn scary!!!!!OH YEAHHH.
wahhh.im so tired now. tmr still got the siloso match.
my index finger the nail like tearing off, shit la, dunno how i spike.the damn nail is damn short now.

aiseh, im missing my g.g now (gossip girl).
blair: "no one's a saint serena, i had sex with him at the back of a limo."
chuck: "several times."
nate(omfg): "yeah, i had sex with you that night - once."*glances at chuck*
*everyone looks at chuck*
chuck: im chuck bass....

HAHA. DAMN FUNNY.

oh ya, rmbed smth ziyun said..to insult me.
dunno who said smth chim in chinese.
me: huh, wat does ___ mean??
ziyun : its okayyyyy, its okayyy, don't force yourself. *with the evil look like this >:B*

LOL.

dayum,
finally managed to dry my knee pads.
it was a valiant feat i must say.
considering how thick it is and how smelly it already is and how smelly it is frm ytd's trng.=p
finally its dried!! T.T
but its still damn smelly.
how to sleep on it tmr night??????gotta bring my penguin then....
walao, i dunno wats my mother's problem luh.
got blanket dowan to use must use my sleeping bag.
somemore she has to use both sleeping bags.
then open then the sleeping bag the bag dunno go where.
wtfffff_|_
the other slping bag so thick...cant use it sia.
minping say bring mattress.
LOLOLOL.
imma scare the beejeebers outta her tmr nite.
heh heh heh. aiseh, i think i bring joe thr to chiong math proj on him tooT.T

dayum, i squished a bee with my finger.
gotta go bathe now.
it sucks,
opening a conv window and staring at it.

Suddenly, Blogger is the emo site and xanga is the happy one.

They say that friends always defend the silver lining right?
Well, not exactly they, but just John Mayer.
My friends are actually condemning it. Whilst I'm the one defending it, protecting it with my life. Friends know the best right? They don't want us to get hurt, they are always there when you need them and always have the right words to say. Maybe I'm just being stupid, cleaving onto the believe that maybe, just maybe something will happen. Am I being mysterious? Haha, YY says guys don't like mysterious girls. But I can't be too open in a er, public place right? The meaning behind everything I've just said is in my diary. If anything ever happens to me, someone go get my diary, its sandwiched between an ugly green file and a book called "100 events that shook our world" on the other shelf. My Bucket List's in there. There are things I want to do and things I want to say to people, some people.

Maybe I'm not just defending the silver lining, maybe I'm just defending the people I love, defending the things I wanna do and myself. Nothing makes sense here, nothing I'm saying now would make sense to anyone, except maybe my friends, maybe I would understand. Maybe I'll go hiatus for a while. Or maybe I won't. Cos I can't keep my big mouth shut.

haha.
ytd ytd was the nyec thing.
had to wake up so earlyT_T.
dunno who called me at 6.22 when i said 6.30.
then bryce yujun and songwei came and my father drove us to hougang, then met wenjia there.
run like mad sia.
the first task have to run so much around the block collecting newspaper.haha.
run here run there around half of singapore....T_T
more tiring than training sia....
jay-walked dunno how many times.hahaha.
then went to the city hall there...sia la i solo take pics with so many strangers for the task. kena bullied by the guys :'( hahahaha.
then er, the charades thing.lolll. CFC= C (middle finger) C
then, omfg, i lost, nono, misplaced our passportT_T_T_T_T_T_T_T lucky they got record. throughout the whole race we race with the catholic high ppl, i think. whoohoo got one volleyballer, but reserve only.hahaha. then in the bus took pics. until we went back to hougang. everyone run like siao to the finishing point.
but nva win anythingT_Thaha.
eyur, at first my father let me go have dinner with the guys one, then my mom kj>:(
i almost lost our cerfiticates, sia la, scare die meT_T.
oh, and we saw nicole chen. yucksssssssssssssssssssssssss. _|_hahahha.

oh yeahhhhhh volleyball camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I CANT CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT.
ALTHOUGH MY FACE IS LIKE THIS ._.
IM ACTUALLY VVVVVVVVVVVVVV EXCTIED.
OMGOMGOGMOGMMGOGOMOGMOGMOGMGMOOGMOGM.
OVER NIGHT WITH MY BELOVED TEAMMATES!!! BUT STEPHANIE DUNNO CAN ANOT.
BEG YR MOTHER!!!!!!!!!!T_T.
YEAHHHHHHH.
THURSDAY TO FRIDAY!!!!!!
SURE HAVE TO DO P.T ONE.WALAOOO.COACH ALSO NOT COMING...
BUTBUTBUTBUTBUTBUBTBUTBUTBTU.
SATURDAY CAN GO SILOSO TAKE MONEY!!!!!!!
>:)
HEHEHEHE.
YEAHHHH. GOT ANOTHER BEACH VB COMPETITION AT VELOCITY.
MY DENTIST THERE-___-HAHA, CAN PLAY HALFWAY GO FOR APPT.
OR ASK MY DENTIST COME DOWN SUPPPORT ME.
his name is lim teh peng.haha. u want to drink????
lololoololololololol.
from last yr beach 4 on 4, siloso 3 on 3, this time is open 2 on 2.
OH YEAHHH!! stunt stunt!! me and sr playing tgt ownage!!hahahhahaha.
i hope theres money involved.
HAHHAHA.

damnnnn, i stupidly gave sr my whole stack of gao zhi.
i dont even rmb passing it to her.
but i finished doing the zuo wen alrd!!
booyah!!!
si han 2nite chiong then type out or smth, tgt with the zuo wen.
or do during the vb campT_T
hahaha.
for now, i'll, no, scratch that, i need to chiong the math project.

¡Ándale! ¡Ándale! ¡Arriba! ¡Arriba!
whoohoo, speedy gonzales.

no wonder its friday the thirteenth.
tdy was ...hias.
a er, concatenation of wierd events.
haha.
minping almost pulled my shorts down.
then low self esteem, dunno la.
damn, i feel lousy, always being the stupid black sheep.
_|_

then ate with da team.
wth..the soup was totally chicken rice soup.
cheat out money $_$
hahahaha.
obs can kill ppl one leh.
heh heh heh heh heh.
HEH HEH HEH HEH HEH HEH.
*rubs hands in delight.*

sw almost couldnt make it for the nyec competition tmr cos he has some badminton competition too. walao, yy tricked me ended up persuading him to play doubles so sw dont need to play dunno wat, then all the while he noes sw not gg for the game alrd.walaooooo_|_ waste my time.
hahhahaa.

YEAHHH. NYEC TMR.
WE'LL SHOW THEM OUR MOJO!!!!V^.^V
>:)
RV OWNAGE!!!
AHAHAHAHAHHA.

hais. finally moiraine and lan and nynaeve found egwene and perrin. the two idiots who keeps gg to villages and meeting darkfriends reached caemlyn. FINALLY.

aiya i wanna watch movie leh....someone ask me out...T_T

woke up at 11.59 am tdy
ate until 1pm.
read until 2 pm.
slept until 4pm.
read until 5.30pm.
rushing my chinese hw until 7.15 pm.

im mulling over my lost holiday T_T

still havent gotten twilight. and still reading the stupid draggy book.
HOW MANY VILLAGES ARE THEY GOING TO TRAVEL TO UNTIL THEY FIND THEIR FRIENDS AND GET ATTACKED BY THE GODDAMMED TROLLOCS?!?!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!??! >: (

smth abt girls needing only 4Gs.

"Girls like us only need 4Gs; Guys, Girlfriends and Gossip Girl."

oh yeahhh.

claudia, magnanimous isnt the new beauty.
magnanimous is beauty for the insecure and unsuccessful.
HAHAHHAHAHA.
i feel mean.

walao, da team should be damn thankful to me luh.
if not they wouldnt have a chance to step into the jap high sch.
hahahha.
sia la, damnnnnnnnn cooool.
can like see the guys toilet frm the outside.
hehe :p
dunno when can interview with the guys hehehhehehhehe.
maybe nxt tuesday when we go to qifa for trng agn.
then the whole team can come along, look see look see.hehe
HAHHAHA.WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~~

oh shit. my thumb hurts now. how to survive thru the stupid lsn tmr?!?!T_T
lol, that gay tcher worrying abt getting fat by eating curry puffs.
hahahahhaha. wasai i dont wna lug the stupid instru to sch for trng tmrT_T_T_T_T
im going to dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

i gtg practice....T_T_T_T_T__T_T_T
and i still need a stupid piano tcher.
and twilight!!!
omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg.
i.
have.
to.
read.
that.
!@##@%!#$!@#$#@
book.
or.
i'll.
die.
T_T

sup.
we won 3 matches and lost 2.
i had pms ytd.
all i have to say is im sorry.
for getting pissed and all.
sorry in 520 different languages.

damn tired ytd.
still tired now, after pms and during pms.
like er, pms hangover or smth.
wtf.

i wanted to let my pms say smth.
but maybe not, it'll just make things worse.

ANW. this is me speaking.
OMFOGMOGMOFMOGMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TWLIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.
DAYUM I WANNA GET THAT BOOK. T_T
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
:0

hais.
hais hais hais hais hais hais hais hais hais.
HAIS.
i hate sighing, makes me die earlier only.
but, oh well.haha.

oh nooooo.
i stepped into a place ytd deemed sinful by my family.
an arcade.
i still feel bad abt it....T_T
not allowed to go there....
but, but but but but.
i sinnedddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
played with the para thing for the first time.
haha, i realize all my first times are with my team mates.
hope er, the other kind of first time wouldnt be...hahahahhaha.lol so porn.
anw. me and minping were like zombies dancing.
hahahha.damn funny.
"I HATE THE FRONT THING.THEN YR HANDS GO LIKE ** THEN U HAVE TO STAY THERE."
haha the drums thing was damn stupid. my hands were dripping with sweat.
lol, minping is crazy in ben n jerry's.
keep asking for serviettes then got qns like wat do u call ppl who dig into bnj's ice cream bla bla bla on it.then she wanted more.
then when i got them for her she went like "ITS THE SAME!!!WHY ISSIT THE SAME?!?!?!?!"with that v disappointed voice.
LOL.

yay, tmr's the big day!!sentosaaaaaaaa. silosooooooooooooo. MONEYYYY $.$ i need moneyyyy. gotta get my hands on more money hehehehhe *rubs my hands and gives the tiko rapid moving of eyebrows up n down*
to put it materialistically, money makes the world go round.
to put it er, practically, money still makes the world go round.
how i wish everyone would give me ang baos for my bday, but they're not marriedT_T
haha.
damn my whole body is aching like mad.
esp my back muscles.
how to playyyT_Thow to get moneyyyT_T?!?!!?!
hais.

tdy's pipa lesson was painful.
didnt wear contacts.then i was late.
then the tape wasnt sticky anymore and i forgot to bring my roll.
then the tcher put the stand so far from me had to keep leaning forward and squint.
AHHHHH.MADE MY BACK WORSE...T_T
duno y he made me hold a pen and pluck and at the same time.
then he asked his other student to teach me a new smth lun3 dunno wat thing.
walao that guy so pro.
all his 5 fingers so strong.haha.
my 4th and 5th finger cant pluck at all.
gotta go do weights on those fingers.hhehehe.

OMG.TWILIGHT.
aiseh, i wanna get that book by stephanie meyers.
cant find it leh, dayum, so depressed nowT_T

y am i being so hard on myself?
y cant i stop defending the silver lining.

oh gawd,
that hurtful phrase is now a team joke -___-
and now it doesnt feel hurting anymore, just feels like everyone is suaning me.
T_T

hahhaha. cant spike at all tdyT_T_T_T_T_T_T_
omg....i wanna die.... :'(
yayyyy. going sentosa tmr with da team.
wheeeeeee~ and the day aft tmr.
SENTOSA ANYONE??!?!
THE MORE THE MERRIER!!!!
T_T
im going to turn into a bangala.
and i even promised myself to stay out of the sun b4 i go for obs.
to make my skin porcelain white.
no, scratch that,
to make my skin alabaster white.
porcelain white is wrong.
i dont understand why everyone uses porcelain with white.
my toilet bowl's porcelain, but its BLUE.
and my parents toilet bowl's porcelain too, but its pink.
HELOOOO.
its not white.
its just painted white.
porcelain white just sounds ridiculous.
ya, and also how come black is associated with pianos?
piano black.
some pianos are white, some are pink, some are colourless.
those transparent ones, damn cool. but hard on the wallet though.
ppl must learn to be less ambiguous.
oh no, i sound like dora.

watched kung fu panda with my family.
dennis the menace came cos my dad got like 6 free tickets.
hahahaha.
wah lao. at first he was calm, then aft the movie, aft drinking the whole bottle of coke, he became craaaaaaaaaaaaazy.cannot stop talking and jumping and...
T_T. sugar does wonderful things to little kids.
works the same way for me i think.
always feel unsettled and nervous if i eat sweet stuff.

anwww. the movie was dam funny.hahahhahaha.
lol, shi fu became she fu.
wu gui became wuuuuuuuuuu guuuuuiiii.
angmoh accents.haha.
i realize my dad says shee fu too.
thats how bad his chinese is.
the turtle said smth really meaningful.
abt living in the moment.
for the moment or smth, cos its a gift, thats why its called the present.
hahha.
spoilers anyone?????i'll provide them.ahha

theres smth everyone should realize abt happiness.
if they havent.
that its no mystery.

everyone should totally go read the interpretation of murder.
a really really really really gd book.
esp the first page abt happiness.
i dont know why they included happiness when the whole story is abt smth else.
but, smth abt interpretating dreams.
cool.beans.
i had this nightmare abt volleyball.
and it has lots to do with wat im worrying abt now.
damn cool.
if u dream abt smth, it has smth to do with anything you are gg thru now, or last time.
hahh

if only i had grabbed at the chance last yr, during the end-of-yr-exams.
if only he didnt like her aft that.
none of this would have ever happened.

i hope he doesnt read this.

i keep listening to john mayer's songs lately, well maybe only yesterday and tdy.
the man-kisser's songs are addictive mannnn.

hias, at this rate, im nva going to finish all my projects...T_T
still have geog and math undone.
finished typing out the cid survey.
now i gotta get some working adults to do it for me.
cant believe i finished typing the whole survey myself in 1 night.
scared the toot outta me.
hahahaha.
suddenly become so hardworking.
haha, uptill now, i dont ive ever been hardworking, and serious for anything b4.
maybe its just my definition of the words.hahaha.

my tuition tcher read the 2nd chpt of the 3 kingdoms to me just now.
coool.
i dont have to read it myself.
hahahaahha.
go arnd killing ppl for nth.
cool beans.
i wanna finish reading dracula...T_T
haha the book has a nice cover.
i'll go read strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde aft i finish dracula.
and all the other 8 unread books.hahahaha.

yayyy. finally found out where the hey hey part for apologize starts.
stephanie shall sing the song while i play tmr!!
woots~

watch gossip girl!
"who am i? that's a secret i'll never tell."*hooker voice*
XOXO.

music should totally be a religion.
john mayer's songs are really nice.
so whimsical and it leaves you in a happy daze...
and its addictive.haha.
is there a subject called song analysis?
or lyric analysis.
thats why i prefer older, quieter songs.
usually have a deeper meaning behind the words.
not like heavy metal ones dont but u cant really hear the words cos they keep screaming it
.haha.and the music just gives me headaches.

trying to find the score for ben jelen's come on,a vvvvvvv nice song.
must get someone to sing apologize while i play>:(

whoohoo.went to town with da team.
hahahaha.
so funny.hahaha.
talked alot abt guys and many things...hahhaha.
i realize i talk v loudly:(

then er, oh, trng was...damn.
suddenly run after so long of er, not running.
the damned knee hurt like helllllllllllllllll.
dunno y suddenly so painful luh..
it still hurts now.
then my feet hurts too.T_T
walaoooooooo.
have to go swimming later.
!$@!%%!@^&^$#@!
seriously luh, this time, i think i'll keep sucking water in thru my nose.
the other time it rained b4 and there were those bees in the pool.
the bigger ones.
u noe, when there are big bees, there are those tiny ant like insects with wings.when it rains.
walao.its like the big bees carry the little ones on their backs or smth.
dont understand why big bees have to come with little bees.
like wtffffff.
bao ka liao.
i dunno how many little bees i sucked in when i was swimming the other time luhT_T.
then got the huge ones.
walaooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. plucked out their wings and stuffed them into the swimming pool drain>:(

my dog's like suddenly chewing smth.
might be one of the small bees.
yucks.

yesyesyesyesyesyes.
saturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturday.
silosoooooooo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
MONEY.MONEY.MONEY.
stephanie owes me money.
shaowei owes me money.
can never seem to get back money from him luh. grrrr

its 10 pm now.
im going to sleep soon.
theres trng tmr.
i have headaches everyday.
the tension headaches back, and its here to stay, i think.damn.
mayb its cos ive been sleeping at 1am everyday for the past few days.
and waking up close to 12 pm with my mom screaming at me.
and the aircon's spoilt.
what a nice time for it to happen.
and the building's undergoing like painting of the outer facade.
got the gondolas and bangalas outside my window.
wtfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.
then everytime at arnd 3 pm can hear construction work.
wtffff.
wtf luh, so fking anoying.
aggravating my headaches.

omigosh.
absolute bf is a drama now!!
so excited.
oh man,im er...
emotionally lagged.
suffering from emotional laggation?
hahaha.
lydia told me abt the drama then i was like .___. oh.
but im so excited now.
haha.
but i dont think u can tell though. cos my face's still .___.
anw, my pri sch tcher hated absolute bf.
all of us did too, no one dared to talk abt it aft wat happened.
haha, qiqi was reading it then the tcher confiscated it and flipped thru the manga.
lol, should have seen her face when she saw the "porn" stuff.
everyone was like 0.0hahaha.
but i was like -___-, also not v explict.haha.
i rmb i got scolded for saying "pervertic worm".
LOL?
e tcher suddenly called me to stand up then started scolding me.
then tht stupid know-it-all nettie choo was like "HIAS.*shakes head*"
i was like lol.wtf???? then started cursing the tcher.haha.her name is yee kwan ngah i think.
"stupid iguana!!!!"
anwwwwwwwwwwww. absolute bf isnt really porn i think. the machine guy just keeps wanting to have sex.hahha.

hope it snows in singapore.
so warmmmmmmmmmmmmT_T
actually not really.just v humid.
and the fking aircon's spoilt.
dayum.

OHHHHHH. we can go play for the siloso beach vball competition.
YAYYY!!!T_T
booyah!!

haha, im typing with the nails on now.
so difficult...
my mom's getting on my nerves lately.
er, scratch that, she's getting on my nerves more lately.
keep screaming at me to practice the idiotic instrument.
>:(
so annoying luh. i'll practice at my own damn pace!!!
sucks la.
the nails so troublesome to put on.
so fking difficult and troublesome to tune somemore.
at least u dont have to keep tuning the piano everytime b4 u wanna play it.
oh mannnnnnnnnnn.i sort of regret going for the lsnnnnn.
haha the tcher teaches in rv too.lol.
he noes ziqi they all.
my mom was screaming at me for being frivolous.
again.*groans*
if i hear anyone calling me frivolous, i'll....i'll...bite your head off.
LOL.
where did i hear that from?
lolololololol. but thats disgusting la.
i'll be eating yr dandruff and er hair and yr scalp.T_Tgoodnessssssssssss.

read smth abt psychoanalysis.
suddenly so fascinated by it.
aft reading the book the interpretation of murder.
carl jung and er sigmund freud.
that freud guy is bonkers, like so sexually inclined....
his theory is like based on sex and the oedipus complex.
mad.
haha.
but psychoanalysis is coool.
says that ppl's behaviour is affected by er their childhood memories or smth there cant be no reason to an action.
ya, very true.
i bet my mom's attitude towards relationships is affected by something that happened to her long ago.
maybe i'll take up psychoanalysis instead of medicine.haha.

"Just for tonight,
maybe we'll make it,
sing like you want this
sing like you want this."

cos i want this.