oh wtf.
the weather sucks.
i miss the weather in those countries with metrosexual guys.
woots.
awwwww.
i miss china man.....
it was hell cold there..
i cant believe i miss the weather there....
although i was freezing my arse off.
fking cold.
at least its not so humid.
i thought my nose was gg to fall off there. then er, theres the pollution and all.
but the worse thing was the static.
oh goooooooooooooooodness.
the static was unbearable.
makes yr hair stick to yr face.
i was so annoyed.
i miss korea too....
dewi and selene were so fun to be with.
haha, dewi spat on the floor or smth outside the hotel, it froze when we came back.
damn coool.hahahhaa.
japan with selene was fun too.
haha, korea and japan has all those metrosexual guys.
i was sort of disappointed when i went to japan...
the guys not hot one.haha.
from some sch.
then the girls not chio one........................................
all v stumpy leh.
wasai, aft psle we went there, i was prepared to enjoy the scenery,
then wth......so disppointing sia...
aw, wth, i wanted to upload this pic i took of 4 jap guys.
i think i deleted it.wtffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.

societal conventions,
or issit social conventions
is that the right word.
wateva la.
why does everyone give a damn abt it.
everyone hates bimbos, thats a convention right?
haha.
guys seem to like bimbos.
like how guys dont understand girls,
girls dont understand guys.


YOUXIANG ARE U OKKKKKKKKKKKK?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
DONT SCARE ME!!!!!!!!1
OMGOGMOGMOGMOGMOGOMG.

i hate girls.
im suffering here.
theres exams.
theres no more cca.
and to make things worse.
dewi's leaving in august or smth.
and im so far away from bryce and youxiang.
i wna have a proper conversation and a longer one with them.
and my teammates.
he's gg to choose the main 6 or 12 in august or sept.
i suck so much.
exams are in a few days time and im not prepared.
the stress is suffocating.
i need to talk to someone.
i need to have some ___ frens in cls.
but guys make better friends though.
oh well.
i need to talk.
my parents wouldnt understand a thing.
wtf.
fk everything
my life sucks when ever i see her fking dog face.
im up against the wall now.
i keep listening to Michael buble's lost.
haha, michael bubble.
juvenile slapstick humour to destress.
i suddenly miss dora's lsn.
i realize her lsn lets me destress?
cos theres not so much stress on lang arts?
so er, im not so stressed?
i dno y im so stressed.
maybe its bcos of the reason i told bryce.

im scared ok.
i dont wanna lose anything, anyone.
dewi's alrd leaving.
i dont want her to leave.

i dont wna hate anyone.
then theres still my ego.

my mind is failing me.
i cant express myself properly anymore.
wow.
wat a great time for tht to happen.

sia la.
i have smth else to say.
lao shi fking failed me for my jian bao.
!@#!@#!@#
i spent a fking long time on tht piece of shit ok.
flipped thru the dict and check chi words on my phone and searched the internet and my tuition tcher's notes to write that goddammed thing.
AND SHE FAILED ME!!
the audacity of that thin leg woman.
wth sia.
she doesnt deserve the thin legs >:|
cant she tell that that jian bao had my blood, sweat and tears on it?!!?!!?!?!? like figuratively.
or maybe literally cos i cut myself.
wth sia.
i 为 myself 打抱不平
thanks arh >:(

aloha!!
tdy was kinda like any other day...
except the fact that chng hai/heng guan came to our cls to take ova mr tan for math.
LOL.
i switched seats with jinyi then sit bside yx.
laughed like shit man.
haha.
dno wat mr chng was saying, then suddenly he screamed the last word.
walao.
fking funny luh.
then his voice so gayyyyyyy.
his handwriting was damn small, cnt see wat he's writing.
haha.
omfg.
then thz walked past our cls twice.
i think she saw me sitting with yx.
:0!!!
lol.so funny.
i was telling yx i wanted to cover my face incase she walk pass agn.
then he was like walao, not like she will walk pass agn.
then thz walked past when he said that.
LOLOLOL.

DAYUM!
im obsessed with area 51 and the roswell conspiracy thing.
haha.
so coooooooooooooool yaoooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!
there are aliens among us!!!!
i was spamming the alien videos on sunday at dickson's hse.
then he was like "walaoooooooooooooo. u stupid la, u believe meh?!?!?!?!"
LOLOLOLOL.
the area 51 thing was freaking cool.
and the stealth plane thing.
black manta or smth.
cnt rmb.
wooohooo, i think i shant be a doctor when i grow up.
i'll be an aerospace engineer.
work in area 51 and make a better blackmanta.
i'll call it the purple pidgeon or smth.
hahahahhahahahha.

go youtube watch area 51 vids!!!
gogoogogogog!!!

my mom is singing some crude hokkien song.
HAHA.
her improvised version of the osama xiao wei song.
wtf?!?!?!?
is she teaching me the right stuff??!!?!?!?!

i flipped my toe nail backwards during trng ytd.
woots.
haha.
freaking disgusting.
not rly la.
ive seen more disgusting stuff.
awwwwwwww.
im so sad.
my beautiful toe nail...........T_T
thank god it wasnt the big toe's nail.
if not it would be uglier.
it was the third toe.
so ah......
i was jumping alot.
i realize when i jump and land, my toes would be curled in.
then i ended up with the flipped toe nail.
does flip sound disgusting enough?
or er, my toe nail tore off.
i jumped my toe nail off.
my toe nail came off.
now i can see my nail bed?
there was a lil blood on my sock.

ok i dno wat the hell is my mom's problem.
my tab's on the coffee table
and im sitting on the floor
she HAS TO sit on the sofa behind me when she can sit on the others.
wtf la.
just now she was talking abt bfs.
i dont noe wat the hell is her problem.
hormone crazed woman must be jealous of my guy friends?
LOL.
i bet smth happened to her when she was my age.
like she had some bf then he cheated on her or smth.
she was like saying dont belive the guy if he say he'll wait for u forever dno wat shit.
i bet smth happened.
she transferred sch once.
i bet it happened during that time.
then she say later u see him with another girl then u will cry like shit.
i bet it happened.
HAH.
too bad luh, she dno how to choose bfs.
i noe she's protecting me but.
helo.
im not that stupid.
haha.
i have high standards man...
if not i wouldnt be single for 15 yrs.

hahhahaha.
all tht just came out when she had to sit behind me.
now she fking keeps staring at me.
i just noe it.
she keeps taking short glances.
HAH
HAH.
I'LL TORTURE U.
LOOK SOMEMORE.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

anw abt the flipped toe nail thing.
micole told me not to pull the nail out.
but i couldnt resist in the end.
haha.
dickson was telling me to use plaster mayb the nail will join back.
-________-
then er, i just pulled it out luh.
it wasnt painful at all.
just v exciting?
haha, damn cool, i keep pulling the nail back.
whoohoo.

dickson's having tuition now
and i dont understand y my parents are so loud and insensitive.
HELO.
PPL HAVING TUITION LEH.
NOT LIKE THE SOUNDS U MAKE V NICE OR ANYTHING.
freaking woman undergoing menopause keeps making my damned dog bark.
and my dad is finishing dickson's chips.
no, correction,
he finished it.
that woman keeps talking to herself.
theres this national geographic programme got one angmoh holding joss sticks dno wat.
then she was making a fuss out of it.
"wahhhhh. ang moh can hold joss stick one meh?????"
then mumble to herself.
HAHAHHAHA.
aww.
im annoyed now.
im having mood swings too.
like from tired to not tired.
not tired to tired.
i need food.
ive stuffed my face with chocolate chips and yakult and tea and water and nerds.
i need more sugar!!!!
AHHHHH.
:0!!!!11
they were clearing the store room.
haha, my helmets there.
with all roller blade stuff.
aww.
miss roller blading.
ok.
they're noisy.
TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK
MY MOM CANT STOP TALKING
i think my dad should seriously get his ears checked cos he keeps going huh.wat u say????
everytime my mom says smth.
LIKE EVERY REPLY STARTS WITH HUH?BLABLABLA.
my mom is talking and talking and talking and talking.
keep calling my dad.
she should totally stop doing annoying things.
everytime she waske me up she has to call my name twice.
so annoying.
AHHHHH.
and i should tell them to stop doing annoying stuff.
cos i keep getting annoyed.
but i dont feel like opening my mouth to talk.
i only want to open my mouth to eat.
WHERE'S MY DINNER?!?!?!?!??!?!!?
:0
so hungry now.
shit man..
my diet is so damn unhealthy.
wateva.
we live to eat right?
spending money on good food is satisfying for the stomach and the wallet.
i dont mind giving extra for good food.
i dont like our sch food.
THEY PUT CHICKEN INTO THE TOM YUM
NOOOOOO!
ITS SICK AND WRONG.
im not spoilt, its just that my mouth only opens to good food.
haha.
i need to eat some nice stuff luh.
hate queuing up for my food too.
sucks.
and er,
hate it when the food turns out to be bad....
and when i eat halfway and cant eat anymore.
cos my mouth hates it.
so er.
i love good food?
i'll marry a world renowned chef or smth.
haha.
have good food everyday.
whoohoo.

i eat too much rice.
i should stop eating too much rice.
but i cant stop eating too much rice.
my mom calls me a fan tong.
wth.
i think i said it b4.
nvm i'll say it agn, out of boredom.
so er.
i like rice.
haha.
i like thai food.
i like the dinner that my mom makes.
only dinner.
cos dinner is nicer than breakfast and lunch.
i bet she purposely makes dinner nicer cos my dad would have dinner all the time.
she's so damned biased.
walao.
helo, im the er, fruit of their love???
shouldnt i get good food 24-7????!!!!

i dont understand y only my dad gets all the good food.
>: (
im so jealous!!!
and she was like cleaning the beanbag for my dog to slp on.
wth.
i told her i wanted to use it and she gave me this wtf look.
"u go do yrself."
and my dog didnt say anything to her and she took it our for him.
WTH??
even the dog gets more love>:|
i bet he hypnotized my mom or smth.
i bet he's like some depraved maniacal scheming bitch inside.
i dont think he's even male.
he doesnt mind pink stuff.
eh, im stereotyping.
and er, dogs cant see colours right?
haha, i bet my dog can.
cos he's so scheming.
maybe he has like colour er contacts on.
wat the toot am i saying????
hahaha.
oh ya.
my mom made his ribbon for him.
wth....
she made this ugly shirt for him too.
its ugly but, SHE MADE SMTH FOR HIM AND I HVAE NTH...T_T
but i dont want her to make a shirt for me.
cos er,
u think her sewing's good,
but it sucks!!!
walao, give more credit and privilege to the fruit of lurrrrve la.
wats her problem mannn.

this song is dedicated to sr.
when you love someone and they break your heart,
dont give up on love,
have faith,
restart.

----------------------------------------
suddenly feel like doing this.
10 things i want to do before i die:

1. See the northern lights.

2. Get into main 6.

3. Get married.
aw...wow, im planning ahead.
mayb i shouldnt get married.
if i do, i'll love man.
but i love men.
HAHA.
junvenile slapstick humour.
maybe i'll just settle on being single forever.........
be a spinster and come back to rv to teach lang arts.
hehe.

4. Have a horror movie marathon.
haha, it would scare the shit out of me.
heh heh, maybe during chalet,
then i bring all the horror stuff.
whoohoo.

5. Be a doctor.
i dno wat kind of doctor i wna be.
but sports medicine, cardiology and neurology sounds interesting.
omfg, j.h.u feels so far away with my damned grades.

6. Marry Joe Jonas.
HAH.
awesome!!

7. Burn the school counscillor.
LOL.
i dont noe where that came from.
suddenly had this urge.
veron went to see her, then we were there....
"dont cry la........................."
she was giving advice that everyone would give.
like wtf?

8. Meet Pamela Anderson.
oogle at her boobs.



the list doesnt end here, should be like 8 things i wna do b4 i die.
haha.
there are loaaaaaaads of things i wanna do.
suddenly realize that having 10 things is being too er, idealistic?or challenging.
haha,
wat the hell am i saying.
my brain is failing me.
or should it be memory.
ya its memory, so brain doesnt fit in.
wtf am i saying agn?!?!?!

anw,
keith teo said maybe there'll be this overseas vb trip to either thailand or china.
LOL.
yay, i can stay over night with my beloved teammates.
yucks.haha, sounds so wrong.
heh.
if we go to thailand,
i wouldnt trade it for anything.
how many times do you get to see transvestites playing vball?
it would be a good laugh.
HAHA.
micole was like saying go japan.
then keith teo say budget.
ehhhh.....if no budget then can go sia.
theres this slight possibility.
SLIGHT.
whoohoo.
he say go overseas play with the team there or smth.
or watch them play, either way.
if we go to japan....
wasai, eye candy sia.
if we see vball guys.
woots.
like twice my height or smth.
HAHA.
i'll go ask the whole team to take a pic with me.
whoohoo.
micole was telling me how to say can i take a picture with u in jap.
HAHA.
so er, december got competition.
cant go overseas alrd.
oh nooooooooooooooooo.
my brazillllllllllllllll!!
T_T

oh ya, thz changed our seats.
haha.
im sitting with xiao shu now...
then er, peng fei is behind me.
HAHA.
xiao shu was like saying v kong3 bu4 if he moves behind us.
then er,
im sitting at the 2nd row.
WTH...
IM SO TALL AND SHE PUTS ME AT THE 2ND ROW.
WOW.
have to strain my neck to see the damn screen luhhh.
i bet im blocking pengfei la,
since his body is so short.
haha.
er.
cant complain abt ____ to yx inbetween lsns, and er during lsns.
awww.
im going to miss bitching with him :'(

when you're dreaming with a broken heart.
the giving up is the hardest part.

wow.
john mayor is really chim.
no, thts not the right word.
i feel so uneasy.
aw shucks, i cant think of a word for chim.
OH NOOOO
:0
my brain died on me....T_T

haha.
tdy was damn funny.
i saw disturbing images.
was so hard on my eyes.
i thought my contacts were gg to pop out or smth.
haha.

sat with songwei during ss.
yx was sitting alone.
haha.
sia la, ernest chia said smth that was fking funny.
haha, i look at yx then he look at me, then we laughed like shit man.
HAHAHHA.
DAMN FUNNY.
anyone wna noe can ask me,
im not gg to say it here.
i might receive murderous glare(s) tmr....
HAHAHA.
ernest chia not only said it once, he said it twice.
HILARIOUS.
HAHA.
its abt wat alyssa said.
haha.
"woof woof."
HAH!!!
then songwei added on to it.hahaha.
his monotonous voice makes it sound funnier.

yay.
thz havent change our seats yet.
she say tmr.
awwww.
or nxt wk.
so meaningless luh.
change also no use.
exams coming alrd.
WATS THE DIFF.

anw, i think i can concentrate better sitting bside songwei luh.
got wenjia and ruolan in front.
so smart.
wenjia so efficient, like can ans all my qns like that.
whoohoo.

i'll bring potato chips to sch tmr.
yay.

suddenly realize that i dont rly have lunch on weekdays luh.
had like gastric just now.
then during ernest chia's lsn laugh so much,
everytime i laugh my stomach will hurt.
hahahahahha.
i guess drinking water would help make me feel full luh.
read tht somewhr for some dieting thing...

walao eh.
shit man.
mid years coming.
im gg to cry.
T_T

i feel like a wandering soul luh.
some ppl will noe y........
haha.
stupid la.

t.g.i.c.c.a.d.t.m.r
=thank god its cca day tmr.

dno y i feel so satisfied now.
maybe it was bcos of the lang arts review thing.
the review was damn easy to write.
whoohoo.
YEAHH.
GIMME 10/10 , DORA!!!

aw i wna watch shutter.
i need to relief myself from all the stress.
i think all the stress has been self inflicted....:(
haha, my grades are so disappointing now.

oh no.
theres some talk on saturday by some ppl in sch.
i bet my mom will drag me to listen to ppl talk abt how they study-___-
she did that when i was in sec1.
helo, everyone has their own study method.
i rmb this guy chang lok i think,
dno wat play chess move 1 piece must wait 30 mins or smth.
then he go study dno wat shit.
then got one bballer.
my mom liked him i think.
say he v smart.
my mom is damn bias.
she only likes smart ppl.
wth la.
not like she v smart or anything.
so she should hate herself and everyone else arnd her??
haha.
fk menopause man.

all the clses got vballers except for 3f and 3k.
haha, get the link, f and k.
only f.k dont have vballers.
haha.
i think the sch did it on purpose to separate us.T_T
wth la.
i was expecting like all of us to be tgt.
chikan, steph, sr, me, thurston, zhenqin to be in the same cls cos of our sub combi.
IN THE END.
I ENDED UP ALONE.
T_T
steph had ck and junfei.
sr had zhenqin and thurston.
i had.......
:((((

so freaking stressed out.
but im doing anything.
haha.
maybe.
i'll do smth.

thz's gg to move yx away....
awwwwwwwwwwww.
heh heh.
his psp is with moi.
whoohoo winning 11 is fun.
but ive nva scored b4 luh........................T_T

i wanna make a general comment abt the ppl arnd me luh, xcluding my teammates and valerie and claudia.
girls can be so fake and unnatural.
ironic huh.
im a girl and im saying that.
its just the impression i get when i see girls.
oh no,
i make myself sound like a homo.
:0!!
but, i need to say this luhh
i rly cnt stand girls.
particular ones luhh.
vballers and valerie and claudia and yx and bryce probably noe who im referring to.
not who, but, all those ppl im referring to.
cant fking stand them.
fking annoying.
gives me headaches.
makes me fking bored and feel sorry for them for being so disgusting.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
:' (
SHO SAD.

i think guys are more natural.
well, thats frm my point of view.
i dunno.
the comments they give arent fake, althought they hesitate, u can tell whether they are telling the truth.
I DUNNO.
THATS JUST WHAT I THINK.
......................
HAHAHAHA.

i cant laugh properly agn.
it sucks u noe.
like the whole day my face is like this .___.
i feel like im floating.
like a dead spirit.
:(
why cant they make it compulsory for cca everday?
im longing for friday to come.
so much happier with my teammates:)
all the laughter, crazyness, sadness, tears.
all surround volleyball, my team.

so er, any sec4s reading my blog, VOTE FOR VOLLEYBALL!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
INCENTIVES!!!




______ is a serious turn off.
such a brainless bimbo.
i dunno wats in her brain man.
like er, stuff that she think's funny but i think is retarded, and that someone should seriously call the IMH before she laughs until she becomes maniacal and goes arnd smothering everyone with her ugly boobs and horrible face.
haw haw.
not tht im jealous of her boobies or anything.
don't tell me wont u be turned-off/taken aback/shocked/speechless/disgusted/aghast/disturbed/
dumbfounded/amazed/stunned/dazzled/abhorred/queasy/nauseated/repulsed/annoyed
when someone keeps sticking their obscenely large boobs out and the first thing that catches your attention, not in a good way are her boobs.
ITS TERRIBLE.
ITS UNETHICAL.
ITS UNSUITABLE FOR THE YOUNG.
IT SHOULDNT BE ALLOWED.
THE GOVT SHOULD IMPOSE A FINE ON SUCH AN UNSIGHTLY ACTION.

SPARE ME!!
WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS...T_T
IF I KEEP SEEING HER DO THAT HORRIFYING ACTION,
MY EYES WILL BLEEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD AND POP OUT FROM ITS SOCKETS.
AND SWELL
AND ROT AND DECOMPOSE.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

HAPPY BDAY BRYCE!!!


whoohoo, went out with val and clau to ps ytd.
wanted to get him a pencil case luh.
but all the pencil cases were so fugly.
>:(
ended up buying chocolate.haha.
LOL.
he had this present frm some ppl... on his table this morning.
haha, his face lit up when he saw the card attatched to the present.
LOL.
haha, his expression was priceless.
smile until like sai.
haha.
i forgot to buy cake.
wthhhh sia.
forgot to get a card too, until gary said smth abt cards.
oh nooooooooooooooo :0
alan was like did u buy the cake??
:00
haha.


got bio test back tdy.
i got 31/45....
fking taiko yx got 33.5
WTF.
WHY IS MY FKING MOUTH SO BIG.
i was like "ehhh, why he didnt tick then nva give u marks."
then he was like "ehh!ya"
me : OH SHIT.
walan ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
!@#!$!#$!@$!%!#!@#
then whole day see this fking smug look on his face.
>:(

but thz's gg to change our seats anw.
like tmr.
haha.
i'll be sitting with someone else.
hope it isnt _____.
haha.
awww.
so yx's gg to be so miserable w/o me.
aw shucks, we cnt bitch abt ___ anymore....
T_T
oh no.
haha.
anw, yx's a bad influence.
i need to sit bside someone who rly listens in cls...................................................................
n not play iphone and psp every lsn.
im havent been doing my hw since the start of the yr.
haha.
im gg to die.
woots.
im gg to miss everyone arnd me:(
alan and austin in frnt.
bryce and evelyn behind.
awww, cant copy evelyn's hw anymore...T_T
wont see alan turn arnd and go "huishan!!!shhhhhh!"
with that super irritated look.
&austin borrowing pens.
i'll miss staring at chan mint and songwei.
haha.they look so cute tgt.
and er, wenxuan's tummy?
haha.
n bryce insulting wx.
evelyn going "walaoooooooooooooo. hur hur hur hur."
haha, thts the way she laughs luh.hhahaa.
yx can go n die.
fking always sabo me.
and ethel at the side laughing at funny things.
pengfei saying funny stuff.
wanzhen laughing.
walao, i sound like a stalker leh.
like so sick and wrong.
haha.

trng was funnnnn.
everyone was retarded.
haha.
super slack tdy.
jiaolian went to thailand to buy jerseys for us.
HAHA.
whoohoo.
the swing was fun(:
hope the scouts dont take it down agn like the other time.
haha.


:) heaved a huge sigh of relief ytd.
haha, so happy now.
heh heh heh.
=p

just got a msg from jaina tan abt the c.a.p competition thing.
haha,
dno why i feel so disappointed now.
aw shucks, maybe my essays werent gd enough.
anw i did them like last min.
the other 2 was fking crappy.
i only liked the first one.
almost moved me to tears.
didnt get chosen luh for the nus writing camp thing...
so er...
haha

wateva la.

lol,
cant wait for cca tmr.
then can talk to my teammates!!!!!!1
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
so sian luh.
only have enough time to talk to them on tues and friT_T
im so deprived.
i feel so happy and relaxed during trngs(:
love my team man!!
whoohoo.
haha, we were bitching abt ___ in the cab on friday, so funny luh.
then alyssa told us abt jingyan and the baaaaaangs.
HAHAH.

the new pe tee is fking small luh.
dammit.
it's like the same cutting as our new jersey.
fking small for my shoulders.
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
sr was laughing when she saw me.
:0!!
walao, i want a refund!!
should have gotten the guys one or smth.
the female's largest size was m.....
HELO.
U THINK EVERYONE HAVE NARROW SHOULDERS?!?!?!?!
fking shoulder discrimination man!
im gg to sue the company!!!!!!!!!!!!
>:)
heh heh heh.

lao niang damn angry ok!!
and im killing myself with all the thinkingT_T
haha.
i need to stop thinking so much la.

I.NEED.SOME.ENTERTAINMENT!!!!!!!!!
havent been laughing properly since ytd.
im close to having a permanent frown on my face like this >:|
frown so much, later my face sag.
then i look like dora lee,
how?!?!?!
and i keep knitting my eyebrows, make my eyebrows er, longer?
ehh, long eyebrows are way cooooooooool.
i shall knit them more often.
haha, knitting, i might make a scarf out of my eyebrows.
that would be even cooler!!
B)
awww, was watching flightplan just now until my dad told me to go come down, then go for dinner with my uncle.
LOL
dickson saw his baaagala tcher.
then he was like "eheh, u listen to her laugh, like shit."
haha, i suddenly think wat he said was damn funny only now.
haha.
im mad...

yay!!
chih yun say got new zealand ppl coming to our sch
BOO YAH!!
HAWT GUYS yaooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!
haha, i rmb in pri sch got some nz sch also come to my sch, then they perform the haka i think.
i thought it was damn disturbing then.haha.
i still rmb this super tall guy then the hair super curly and blonde.
his body was so long it reminded me of noodles then, and i got so hungry.haha.
ok, that was lame.
anwwwww.
she say she's gg to bring the nz ppl for cca!!!!!!1
:0!!!
im damn excited now!!!
omgomgomgomg.
althought im excited,
my face doesnt look excited leh.
it looks expressionless.
like only my mind is excited.
wierd.
im still like this >:|

aw shucks, i still have a throbbing headache ever since friday.
v giddy now.
i might fall of the chair any second.
haha.
wahh!
now even more painful T_T

hey hey, shutter, anyone?!?!?!
who wna watch with me?!?!?!?!?!?!
anyone wanna watch tell me ok!!!!!
shutter, shutter, shutter, shutter,
chant with me!
shutter shutter shutter.
oh no, typing the name over and over agn is freaking me out.
i might not be able to slp tonight.
and the night when i watch tht movie.
COOOL!!!

oh man.
the phy test was a killer.
at least to me it was T_T
not for the prcs though, xiao shu and xuling managed to finish all the qns....
LIKE DUH.
they always finish all the qns...
so smart.........................................................
:/
haha, actually i sort of expected myself not to be able to finish the paper and er, probably fail it or smth....
or taiko taiko pass by half mark or smth...
hahaha.
aiya, wasted my time studying for it ytd.
study no study still the same,
ALSO WONT GET GOOD GRADES.
WATS THE POINT MANNNN.
haha.
study phy until no time to study math.
then started to worry abt it aft the phy test.
phy test was first thing in the morning then break then math test.
wtf man.
haha, then read the log notes last min, couldnt bring myself to read it ytd nite, was so sick and tired of studying...T_T
then walao,
NO KICK SIA.
friggin easy seh.
heh heh.
im being complacent agn.
complacency kills,
but, oh well.haha.
yx was leeching luh.
copy copy copy.
mr tan didnt ask us separate table.
cool right, for yx at least.
haha, so easy compare ans one.
heh heh, can even compare with evelyn sia.

then wasai during chi lsn the left side of my head like got squeezed by someone
like sudden pain.
damn painful.
then i had headache until i ate panadol.
wasai, i do the damn titration thing so troublesome.
walk here walk there get the freaking indicator and refill the fking liquid.
tmd.
my head hurt so much luh.
the sci labs air ventilation got abit bad leh.

then er, went to toa payoh sports hall to watch vb bdiv finals.
lucky jiali smsed me during lsn, if not i would have forgotten luh.
im forgetting everything now luh.
:(
anw.
nabeh.
presbytarian high was fking cool.
no 14, 17 and 3 i think, were more of the eye catching players.
the setter was damn fast.
*hints to stephanie*
walao, their spikes were damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn nice.
sembawang was taiko leh.
tdy was their lucky day luh.
but their no2, the michelle was scary.
presbytarian were quite stressed i think.haha.

then er,
OMG.
all the top schs all come out for the prize presentation.
wasai!!
the st hilda guys bods were dammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmnnnnnnnnnnnnnn hot.
DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN HOT.
all of them super tall and the shoulders damn broad then v lean.
vballl guys are fking tall and shuai luh.
haha, our sch's guys................lol.
but, they were damn tanned, not nice.
like baaaangs.
HAHHA.

yx is fking vulgar.
ask me to forge excuse letter for him.
cos my handwriting like adults one.
heh heh,
i forged one for myself to thz b4, for the fking learning journey.
haha, dora lee calls it l.j
haha, the forged letter worked on thz luh.
fking cool
but in the end still have to go cos she so kb.
in the end he also nva use the letter la.
tmd.
i wasted so much paper rewriting and rewriting.
>:(

shucks, i ran into the railing ytd.
fking hit my hip bone.
nabeh.
damn painful.
now got bruise alrd.
thanks to the fking butterfly la.
its like halfdead or smth, on the floor, i wanted to step on it but decided to let it die naturally.
then dno wat veron do, then i v annoyed, cos i was damn urgent.
then i brisked walked into the damn railing!!!

haha, s

helo.
im so stressed out.
and relaxed at the same time.
so sian..............

felt my gastic kicking in when i was in the lift just now.
but i got eat luh.
i think my stomach got too much digestive juices.
then er, ate rice with some nice stuff my mom made.
then er, ate pizza.
then study phy.
then fall asleep.
wake up.
fall asleep agn.
then talked on the phone.
then my mom forced me to eat.
then eat luh.
then she say i kp eating rice.
HELO.
she ask me to eat one leh.
then she call me fan4 tong3.
haha.
ya luh, i keep eating rice.
my diet is damn unhealthy.
coke, potato chips, er, oily, salty and sweet stuff.
i like my food to be extra salty and sweet.haha.
i keep eating ice cream and rice.
too much carbs and sugar.
carbs is good though.
but im gg to diabetic one day.
haha.
at the rate im going, i might not live till i er, graduate?
haha.

got phy and math test tmr.
whoo hoo.
being a girl is a gd thing.
can always settle on being a housewife.
heh.

yx is mad.
his phy ass is with me.
haha, he's gg to fail physics!!
woots!
















yucks.
he's damn sick.
write viagra on strepsils.haha.
then the strepsil got s on it.
then he was eating it, then he was like "s for...."
HAHA.
he's sick and wrong.

dora was in a gd mood tdy.
so funny.
she laughed.
n smiled or smirked when yujun talked abt men's health.
haha, i bet she has a secret stash of it at home.
haha.
then can stare at guy's bods everyday.
hahahahha.hahahahahah.

i think im losing my sense of humour.
:0
OH NO!!
im boringgggggggggggggggggggggg.
im bored ._____.

i hate law by law ppl.
so annoying.
like thz.
the learning journey thing...
then she kp saying dno wat stuff.
then die also want us to go.
she v goody two shoes leh!!
morning assembly in cls also must listen to the freaking speaker.
then cnt have stuff on the table when we sing the national anthem.
-___________-
not liike we will look down when we sing the anthem or smth.
ernest chia's the best.
heck care the announcement shit.
then walao, then mr tan like influenced by ms tan, then dunno la, so funny.haha

walao, how come our form tchers have the same surname luh.
now i keep calling everyone ms tan and mr tan.
>:|

both of them are wierd...........................................................

thz's lsns are so damn boring.
everytime also slp at the front part of her lsn.
i think the way i slp v wierd leh.
haha, but i cant help it, i just fall asleep.
haha, then i woke up, then so full of energy alrd.
then draw on yx's hand.
haha, then he so funny, snatch the pen then say u go slp u go slp!

NABEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I GOT GOLD HAIR.!!!!!!!!!11
T_T
KNN
CCB
TMD
IM GG TO CRY.
nooooooooooooooooo
no gold hair!!!!!!!!11
its either im gg to have white hair or im turning into an angmoh.
id rather believe the latter.
but its better to be safe than sorry right?
i'll remove all the unsightly coloured hair.
i found 2 strands!!
yucks!
if i find white hair, im gg to cry.
then im ggg to dye my hair.
T_T
gold hair...............................................
omg...................................................................................
im growing old...............................T_T
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
NO WHITE HAIR.
NONONONONOO
NONONONONONONONONO
GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
DONT COME NEAR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

im damn peeved now.
where the hell did my privacy go?
well, maybe it wasnt even mine ever since i was born.
my mother doesnt respect it ok.
its fking annoying.
hello, which mother reads her daughter's diary?
only my mom.
cos she's special...............*sarca*

nabeh, i have to hide my diary luh.
but i have no where to hide it la.
my room is like strategically planned and the godammned furniture is like carefullly chosen not to have any places for me to hide my stuff.
must be my mother's doing.
i have to hide my diary luh.
i totally cannot trust my mother.
neither does she trust me,
she told me b4 that she doesnt trust me, she doesnt trust anyone, xcept for herself.
wtf.
is that even the right thing to tell me?!?!?!
teaching me the wrong things la.
>:(
i have to hide everything ok, cos she doesnt trust me and i dont trust her not to hold back from prying into my privacy.
she told me that she wouldnt give me any.
wtf.
ya, she doesnt and will never,
she comes into my room at like a fixed time at night, then sit at the sofa watch me use the com.
WTF.
audience...............................................
like every guy i talk to or sms to is my bf.
wtf, she's mad.
if i talk to claudia or some girl then she'll still accuse me of talking to guys.
HELLO.
U THINK I DONT HAVE ANY FRENS WHO ARE GIRLS MEH?!
then say wat talk in sch enough alrd, don need to talk at home.
wtffffffffffff
somemore she say until damn sarca.
my mother's worse than dora lee.
she told me that i'll thank her if i ever make it big.
like wtf, NO NO NO NO NO NO .
she say cos she nag then i'll study.
heloooo.
not true, wth?!

nabeh, then theres the jump-at-the-chance-of-reading-my-sms-when-i-have-tuition incident.
NAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABEH.
last saturday i was having tution in the kitchen, then suddenly receive msg.
and my phone was on the coffee table T_T.
my mom was in the living room.
then i looked downstairs, then she was like taking my phone and reading the msg like nobody's business.
u noe how taken aback and angry i was ?!?!?!?
then she come and lecture me abt smsing guys.
then talk abt singaporean guys being players and shit.
stoooopid leh.
then dunno like keep challenging me to lock my hp agn like last time.
then keep stressing on the fact that she wont give me any privacy cos she doesnt trust me.
HELO.
SHE DOESNT TRUST ANYONE.
i bet she sits at home everyday when my dad and i are not arnd, then search my room and my dad's cupboard and shit.

she thinks alot luh.
i also bet she sits at home then anyhow suspect stuff, which she does all the time.
then think so much.
wtf.
i think i got that trait of hers.
but mine isnt as serious as hers.
she like let her imagination run wild,
then when we come home, she'll interrogate.
*IMAGINE ME POINTING THE MIDDLE FINGER NOW*

i think i think too much.
im not jealous, but i feel unsafe, insecure.
ive had my fair share of false hopes.
but this time, i think im serious abt it.
yx's right, the higher u get/climb the harder u fall.
sr's right too, dont think too much.
i hope history wont repeat itself.
im tired of fickle ppl.
i dont noe wat im talking abt, im just typing every sentence that comes into my head.

i suddenly realise i have this wierd habit.
no wonder my sleeves were always so dirty in pri sch.
=p
i always like wipe my hands on my sleeves, like cross my hands over, wiping the left hand on the right sleeve and the right hand on the left sleeve.
ok, i just did it.
cos of my sweaty palms la.
makes my hand so sweaty and when i touch like dirty stuff like then the dirt sort of sticks to my hand when the sweat like dries up or smth.
fking gross!!
the rv uniform sucks!!1
its like non sweat absorbent, cant freaking dry my hands.
i hate my sweaty plams!!!
and feet.
AHHHHH.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
its like hereditary?
mine is like more of the acute, chronic type.
T_T.
my cuz has like a carpet under his desk to dry his feet when he's doing hw.
my aunt's scared he would spoil the i dunno how to spell wooden kinda floor with his sweat.
my feet's sweating like hell now.
my hands too....im going to spoil my tabbyT_T

I HATE SWEATY PALMS.
i think its called hyperhidriosis or smth.
like excessive sweating, stephanie should be thankful that only her head sweats.
mine is like the palm the feet the head, THE WHOLE BODY?!?!?!?

you know wat's most annoying abt having sweaty palms?
YOU CAN NEVER USE SCOTCH TAPE.
everytime i touch scotch tape, the tape becomes like this plastic sheet that doesnt stick anymore.
T_T
you noe how i felt when i was a kid then?!
i just felt damn peeved.
haha, at the tender age of 5.
until now i have difficulties using scotch tape luh.
like have to make trips to the basin to wash my hands while im using it.

and it sucks luh, my feet sweats so much i can even make myself slip and fall.
the time when i slipped down the stairs and sprained my toe, come to think of it, the sweaty feet was one of the reasons.
was chasing my cuz i think, cos he did smth to me, I DONT NOE WAT THE HELL IS MY FATHER'S PROBLEM.
THE FREAKING STAIRS HAVE GOT NO ENDS.
LIKE SLANTED CORNERS.
the ends arent like 90 degrees its like someone shaved off the sharp end.
and the person is my dad.
WTF !!
everytime i fall down the stairs its becos of the muthafucking slanted end of the steps.
i keep stepping on it, then my freaking feet is sweaty, then i slip.
T_T.
i rolled down the whole flight once, when i was 5 i think, or was it 6.

anw, sweaty hands suck like hell bcos it makes my fingers slip off the piano keys.
and it makes my worksheets damp.
and it makes my exam script damp.
it er, makes my shirt dirty during trng.
like everyone's shirt is so damn clean, mine is always the dirtiest, but haha, jiantong's one is the winner.
its like my sweat mixes with the dirt on the vball, then i need to wipe my hands, then i wipe on my shirt, then the freaking shirt becomes super dirrty not forgetting the sleeves, then my mom will scold me when i get home.
:(
f sweaty palms and feet man!!!

i think i really might not live till i see er, chih yun grow taller than me.
hehe.
my back is so sore..........
my right knee is hurting, it was the left knee at first luh.
wat the hell!!>:(
when we ran 1 round during pe tdy my whole back like omg....
dunno how to describe.
T_T
walao, im so freaking behind all my teammates luh.
if the dr didnt make me stop trng.
i wouldnt be so....
tht muthafucking son of a bitch.

sr said go see dr also no use,
he sure rest yr body, stay away from sports.
ya luh ya luh!!
the freaking doctor said that la.
nabeh.
walao, i want to become a sports doctor luh.
then i'll be the first doctor who wont make anyone stay away from sports.
its like stupid la.
the time he made me stay away from volleyball, then say my back dunno wat shit.IN THE END ALSO NTH.
WTF LUH.
WASTED 1 MTH ROTTING AT HOME LEH.
!#$@#@%!#!@
when he told me to stop trng i was like this --> .___.
then became this :0!!!
there was this sudden rush of emotions,
first was shock.
second came regret, for going to the dr.
third was devastation.
fourth was anxiety.
and fifth was all the vulgarities.
but i didn say la duh, later he kick me out of the hospital or smth.
it sorta went like all the vulgarities i noe ran thru my head.
"TMD, KNN, CCB, LJ, F,WTF, MUTHAFKING, S-O-A-B,SHITFACE, ER, DICK HEAD,OLD FART, "
i think thats it.haha.

wasai, pt was super tiring....
did lunges etc etc.
then dunno wat circuit thing jump jump jump,
duno wat sai.
aft that my legs like going to give way alrd.
T_T
almost wanted to crawl to the water cooler.

and and and.
the things that she does, did, do, doing pisses me off!!
its damn hell disgusting.
she's like this big time flirt that is so unaware of her surroundings, her friends, not her friends, but just her friend.
sucks luh, i gave up on her(sucker) so long ago, but she was still protecting her(sucker) and shit.
until now, maybe she still does but, she(sucker) has no idea how insensitive she's(sucker) being and all.
im tired of not liking her anymore, she can be so damn nice and yet she can be so fking turning off.
she's the ultimate, well not in a good way.
like ultimate sucker or smth.
"heyyo, im the all time sucker!!"
she has like delusions of herself being well-liked and it is disturbing. really.
i can feel my goose pimples.
like here she is thinking that she's so er, defended, then i'll be like giggling,"haha, u suck!! teehee."
i dunno, i feel so damn mean, two-faced, guilt-ridden but at the same time so........shuang?
i can stand the things she does to me, well cept for one thing that was damn long ago and i dont give a f now. but the things she does to ppl closer to her is really, wow, makes me wonder if she(sucker) rly meant all the things that is like their best friend "pledge".
she(sucker) makes use of her alot. and i cant take this standing down, or issit sitting down?
how can u be standing down?
lol, so wierd.
anw, it really sucks luh.
ppl defend her, they are like blinded by her whining and all,
maybe not blinded but er, deafened?
i sound jealous but im not la.
i just feel like telling everyone this : GO GET YR EYES CHECKED MAN!!and ears to while you're at it.
i dont want ppl to hate her but, its not nice, idk why im becoming so nice nowadays.
but the last thing i want is to see her(not sucker) hurt some more.
she's been there, putting up with all her(sucker) nonsense.
she's too nice, too forgiving, im not saying its a bad thing to be nice and forgiving but she(sucker)makes use of her(not sucker) good qualities, like using it against her.
i rly rly rly rly rly cant take this lying down.
i dont want her to be affected by the things she does anymore, ive been through it and i know how it feels.
all her flirting with particular guys.
made me damn pissed the other time.
it still makes me pissed now.
but, if she ever flirts with __, i'll knock the daylights outta her.i swear to god, if i don't, my name is chow ban hoe.
>:)
im sorta immune to the things she does, its like everytime someone tells me, i wont be shocked, i'll be shocked by the way she did it but not the reason why she does it.
er, i dno how to explain but...nvmmmmmmm.
its like, expected, and its SO HER.
SO SO SO SO SO HER.
its totally her m.o (method of operation)
why is she like this luh,
it would make guys like her, maybe....but not girls.
she just wants so much attention and it is so damn obvious.
ATTENTION FROM GUYS AND HER(not sucker)FRIENDS!!

WAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER, SOMEONE ENLIGHTEN ME!!

walao.
i got headache.
wtf?!?!?!??!

must be bcos i didnt eat tdy.
the food just couldnt go down luhhh.
nvm, its a good thing though.
if i lose weight i can jump higher.
whoohoo!!

yx is dam hell irritating.
he keep saying that jean's legs are dam nice.
suddenly out of no where "omg....jean's legs are so nice......."
so fucking gross!!
HAHAHA.
his ezlink card photo is dammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!
his face so white, then his lips super red.
HAHAHAHA.
AND HE BLAMES THE FLASH FOR IT.
LOL.
claudia and stephanie couldnt stop laughing when they saw it.
hahahahhhaha.
im going to laugh until i cant slp.
hahahahahahaha.

wait.i got smth to complain abt.
WALAN EH.
THE FUCKING BIO TCHER IS SO FUKCING ANNOYING.
!@##$#$!@#!@#$%!#
he caught me reading newspaper.
heloooo.
i was flipping it only!!
but that isnt the point.
the point is, that he asked bryce to stop talking.
but bruce wasnt even talking.
so funny leh.
LOLLLL!
can laugh at him one leh!
HAHAH.
then he tripped on the wire, but he didnt fall, so sad, i was hoping that he would >: )
heh heh.
then he keep stopping when he hear ppl talking.
like whispering, not v loud talking.
haha, then veron said that they purposely keep talking then make him keep stopping.
woots.

then er, we didnt need to go for the learning journey thing.
cos me and veron stayed to support ethel for the pesa thing.
omggggggggggggg.
almost died in the clsroom listening to all the speakers talking and takling.
T_T
some were quite disturbing.
haha.

yay, theres cid tmr.
can go to the container clsroom for aircon.
SALVATION!!

yucks!! i lost to evelyn at arm wrestling.
T_T
i lost to bryce also, wait, we were wrestling halfway until thz came.
yx refused to wrestle with me>:(!!
walao.
i like nva win at arm wrestling b4 luh.
like how ive nva won at chess b4.
so sad right?
:'(
shall continue the arm wrestle with bryce tmr.
im going to win!!
OH YEAHH!!

walao.
im so tired now.
my mom asked me smth just now, i could only mumble.
im dragging my feet alrd.
so annoying, my mom made me go up to the kitchen.
wth, so frigging tired.i have no mood to climb the frigging stairs.
so tired.
and hungry.
but i dont feel like eating.
couldnt eat during recess.
then er, kept drifting in and out of slp during thz's lsn.
she's so dam annoying.
smile smile smile.
like ronaldhino like that.
then during geog also.
i was hugging my file, then resting my chin on it, then er, fell asleep a bit.
but i could still hear tanwanting talking.....

then er, had trng.
then ah....
trained with the juniors.
joanne was cute(:
heh. jieli also.hahahaha.
then chihyun said smth that kept distracting me.
wth man!!>:|
HAHA.
then er, i dunno wat happened.
OH YAH.
saw dixon tdy.
then said hi to him.
whoohoo, he still rmbs me.
actually, of cos he will rmb me la.
like duh.
haha.
then er, my right hand like swelled, so red luh.
cos of spiking.then er, my hand was shaking.
hahahhahahahahahahaha.
walao.
my mom is annoying!!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
ytd keep saying that i nva buy food for my dog.
then had to buy tdy.
wat the hell.................................
then had to carry the dog food and my files and my bag and mmy shoe bag home.
walaooooo!!!!

wth.had to run 2.4 tdy.
pisses me off.haha
i sound like youxiang.
so stupid.
2.4 finish alrd still have to run.

my mother came into my room and said that im bian tai.
cos i have a picture of a naked man on my wall.
WTH!!
only half naked luh.
wat the hell is wrong with my mother.
walao, n i still rmb evelyn ripping his pic.
omggggggggggggggggg
she refused to give him back to me cos he's hot.
then we were pulling the picture.
wth, then it tore........T_T
i was so devastated.............................................
haha, i have alot of footballer's pics on my wall.
tht wall will become the hot guy wall.
er, i'll have to remove mandy moore and her big mouth first, put her on the other wall.
the other wall is like the woman wall.haha.
i have agyness deyn on it.
whoohoo..............
im behind alot of hw.
im .
going.
to.
die.
soon.
maybe.
like.
i duuno wat the f am i saying.
totally didnt listen during mr tan's log's lsn.
then er, he bluffed us tht there a graded quiz tdy.
then in the end i could do one qn, surprisingly.
it was supposed to be pair work.
yx leeched.
made me do the work.
tht asscrack.

i wodner how it feels like to sprain yr ankle.
coool~