If only I were a better person and a better friend.

Today, I have seen how power can make one so desperate and shameless.

And i thought of the song whose title was used in broader perspectives: LOL

I can just like use my essay on please vote for me to describe the situation just now by just changing the names of the people involved and the setting to the court. LOL. It really amazes me how someone can become so obnoxious and yes, SHAMELESSLY SHAMELESS when it comes to, er I don't know what to call it, it isn't really a campaign though. But whatever, just need a word to finish the sentence.

I finally understand and appreciate the topic on Power after what happened today. Power corrupts, power vacuums, power struggles, I've seen and experienced it all in a matter of hours. Yeah, there was a power vacuum just now, people were clearly trying their best(mostly in vain)(sad to say I was one of them) to try to fill that vacuum with their um, self proclaimed worthiness(but i was completely subtle about it!). At least I didn't try to assume some air of importance and an undeserved leadership position.LOL. Did that sentence make sense? It was interesting to watch yet at the same time it was quite turning off. People were grabbing at the opportunity and their desperation was blatant. blabblablabalbalbala. got lots more to say. will continue when i feel like it. hahah.

*quotes my essay conclusion.*

best song ever!

omg!! kelly jones!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1<3

These guys are sick!!! \m/

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Dad still doesn't like the idea of me studying in the US...Mom's still ok. I've already made up my mind though. The only thing that could stop me from leaving is failing my A lvls...T_T that would be tragic. I'll never be happy if that happens. hhahahaha. *inserts things I don't wanna announce here but if you wanna know you can ask* HAHA.

watched the island on youtube. ugh, it was so Michael Bay. His films always have at least one scene where he starts moving the camera in circles around 2 people. Lame. He did that during the kissing scene in transformers. Lame until cannot lame. The plot was alright but the directing was so transformers-ish. You would understand if you watched.

“...my love for Heathcliff resembles the eternal rocks beneath - a source of little visible delight, but necessary. Nelly, I am Heathcliff - he's always, always in my mind - not as a pleasure, any more then I am always a pleasure to myself - but, as my own being...”

shit. he's uncontactable. goddammit! ARGHHHH. reply me you blasted thing!!! _|_

been watching martin mystery. hahahah.

sounds way better than the original. must get onto watching oth! omgomgomg. only at season 1's ep11...gogogo. go luke and peyton!! the girl sophia bush acts as can go suck balls!! >: -p

*nathan&haley forever too! cant wait for the part where they get married. gogogo oth!

We've(Dewi&I) talked about how people plagiarise. How they rip things from you- or worse, claim credit for it. It really annoys me/us to no end. It's downright copying and not to mention a breach of an individual's individuality!!(lolza) I've always thought they're made up pieces of many people stitched together in an ugly patchwork. Not that I'm completely original or anything but at least I know what I'm copying. LOL. I find it really funny (LOL. LQTM) how these plagiarisers can't even use the er, material(?lol) correctly. lol I dunno, like with phrases and stuff. Really weird the way they use it. ok, actually really weird the way she uses it. heh. `That was me being extremely polite. don't wanna be too mean >:-p *chuckles* . oh man. forgot what I wanted to say next. oh well. haha. *oh yeah, i remember: ...at least check the dictionary or something before you use it! :3

;.-) <-- heh heh, my emoticon has a beauty mark~

Sad, but it's the truth.

Day after day, my future seems bleaker and bleaker. I still can't recover from my horrible RioTinto results. And horrible isn't an overstatement, trust me.

I sit infront of the laptop everday, wondering what I'm going to do next. It's unsettling.

I'm officially sucked into the"vortex of hopelessness". A 3.7 gpa isn't enough. But I'm not doing anything about it.

I wanna get into med school so bad.

BUT.

I'm only 16! I shouldn't live my life worrying about my future. I should, but not now. Maybe next year. Which comes in 5 month's time. Or right before my A lvls would be ok too. man, I make myself feel lousy too much. bleah. In 2 years' time, I would probably be having tea and scones with the Queen. And she would be so honoured by my presence that she'll start stuttering. Yeah that's right \m/

Finally! A good pair of jeans! T_T went out after the proj id thing with my mom to shop at vivo. yes yes, retail therapy!!! we spent 100 plus. haha. i finally have new clothes~ she wants to buy more clothes tmr haha. lolololol. sweeeeeeet. so busy tmr!! got tuition in the morning with val and clau. then going shopping with mama but i wanna get the chio bookcase with my dad at ikea and i wanna watch the semis and finals at sentosa and i wanna go swimming too. afternoon plan dilemma!! lololol. have pipa lesson in the evening. die haha.

LOLOLOLOL.watching the ayg highlights aft hp. the basketball girls from china and japan don't look like girls at all!!! lolza. i thought they were the guys. the beach vb girls are still way chioer than the bball girls~ plus they have better figures. but actually you cant really judge the bball girls. coz they wear too much cloth. isnt uncomfortable? lol. ayg is just for china to dominate again. dunno how many ppl they sent....plus they're all so tall and talented. one of the bvb girl's like 180cm? T_T sabrina azizova from krygyztan is chio! but i think she has an attitude problem. i tihnk she was bullying her fatter team mate.lol. walao. thailand and kazhakstan are in the finals! sianzzz. sucks. sg beat the thai team during the moe international thing... both the girl's and guy's teams are out. so sad:( i hope they get over the loss soon. esp melvin....

ziyun went for the ayg volunteer thing today and she said it was fun. she met the taiwan guys. -.- urgh lol. the only thing that interests me is the 5 star food they get to eat. omfg!!! \m/ i wanna spam the shifts alrd! can eat good food everyday. unless...........ziyun was using that to trick me into attending my shift. !!!

Emo.

The saying, "put your thinking hat on" is often used when someone tells someone else to start thinking.

I just realised that's a literal description of me when I do my work. Haha, now that I've found my beanie, the penguin winter hat thing from Lotte world can rest in peace. omg, my idiosyncrasies make me look like some retarded retard.